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TL;CR MEME
1. Comment with your character.
2. Receive comments from others.
3. Reply to their comments with long ballads and explanations of your characters' relationship throughout the game.
4. Suffer as we have suffered over your CR.
1. Comment with your character.
2. Receive comments from others.
3. Reply to their comments with long ballads and explanations of your characters' relationship throughout the game.
4. Suffer as we have suffered over your CR.
fukuda
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Like, if there's anything that is less positive it's that he never really understood why she liked him? He was always confused about that because while he thinks a bit better of himself now, he doesn't think he's that great and Lenore is beautiful and kind so??? Why???? But he is just glad anyway. Maybe it even helped him in his gaining of a little self respect.
Also he really wants to help people and also do cool movie things, so getting to be a vampire victim was really a highlight for him. Pazu I hate this stupid man.
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As you know, Fukuda likes Aoi a lot. He didn't take her whole thing seriously at first, but then when he fairly quickly decided to just surface level accept it he ended up buying in basically anyway because why not this be true? Either way, from the start he felt like he could sort of relate to her? Fukuda's whole character conflict is feeling incorrect, incomplete, and unable to properly connect and relate to other people, so Aoi... really reflected that for him? So he was drawn to her in that sort of "same hat" sort of way.
Similarly, she struck him as like, very vulnerable, and he Wants to Help as a way to get closer to people, so he felt this urge to do what he could to help her, and that eventually ended up becoming Wants To Protect urges more than anything else. He felt like she was becoming more human as the weeks went on and that made him happy not only because he did want that her her but also while he mostly thought "Aoi is young, she still has a chance at a normal life," a small part of him thought that maybe if Aoi can change he can too? Basically.
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Anyway... Omi is honestly probably Fukuda's best friend now? "In the game?" no in general remember he did not have any friends before. Anyway things started off on a weird foot bc they banged literally the first time they talked after a truly hilarious misunderstanding over the words "partner" and "drilled," which is just like. Incredible that it even got past that point, frankly? But from the start Omi just felt like, too good to be true, to Fukuda. He's kind and talented and handsome, AND he isn't repulsed by Fukuda? Completely improbable. But he still wanted Omi's attention, because why not indulge?
But then... the memshare. Bad for Omi but ultimately good for Fukuda. Not only did it make Omi less perfect, and thus less Too Good To Be True, the passion behind it made Fukuda respect him because shockingly the serial killer is Weird About Murder. Conversely Omi's concern after HIS memshare was weird and confusing but not entirely unwanted? Just alien. Then he got the fucking lore in jail and was like WOW OMI IS ACTUALLY VERY SAD? And with Omi's wish was really the height of his conflict of him selfishly wanting Omi's attention and friendship but also, confusingly for him, wanting Omi to get what he wants.
That again when Omi died, with him being like I AM sad that Omi died but if I'm honest more than that I am HAPPY I get to talk to him more. As Omi got sadder and sadder this shifted. Grill also helped because it tamped down his envy and pushed a lot of his crushes into platonic territory so he genuinely wanted Gomi to reunite because Those Are His Friends.
His one regret is he doesn't feel like he was ever able to help Omi as much as Omi helped him, and by the end he maybe had an inkling that this was in part because Omi wouldn't allow Fukuda to help him, and this does make him sad. But he is glad Omi's wish changed because he wants Omi to move forward, as even a weird sad dog like him recongises that all of Omi's life basically being for Nachi is weird and sad? So. Congrats on your big weird sad dog Omi because you have him for life.
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No I'm kidding. The fact that she's so unassailably nice is deeply confusing to him, so it's a good thing she's a god because without the like "well maybe this is just what proper gods are like," he just would not be able to wrap his head around it. Fukuda is someone who's made a lot of incredibly bad choices, but he's also someone who Clearly Needed Help Badly and Did Not Get Even A Little, and this is further reflected in the fact that all he really wants it for someone to see him as a complete person and accept him for it?
So you can see how him telling SQX fucked up stuff and her not immediately writing him off or getting up in arms about the fucking SERIAL MURDERS- WHAT THE HELL SQX- won her a lot of points with him. He liked her company and admired her a lot, and then felt bad TWICE for doubting her. But it's because she doesn't really feel real to him? He just doesn't expect people to be like this. As far as he's concerned SQX can have a little murder as a tweat.
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Like. He liked Limbo at first? Because Limbo was nice to him and liked the less good parts about him. And you know how Fukuda is. He just wants some positive attention. To be reassured he's ok as he is. But also as much as the envy clusterfuck was... a lot. Just a lot? He sort of wasn't enjoying it? Moreso in retrospect. Fukuda got REAL into envy and Limbo was absolutely drawing on worse parts of him. But he's got no concept for what relationships should be like? And his views on murder are messed up. Limbo wants to destroy the world? Damn not his world so y'know it's fine? This is clearly some big sexy monster why WOULDN'T they want to destroy humanity. He was lost in the sauce. Limbo encouraged him to be envious and it's that same envy that led to everything falling apart. Limbo just HAD to also be close to the ONLY person Fukuda had it in him to dislike. And then when he had to make a choice, they chose Medb over Fukuda.
So Fukuda was like "well fine I'm going to die and you've made your position known AND you're here talking shit about Aoi? I'm rude now." He can only really understand Limbo in relation to how they're similar to him, but unfortunately Limbo's flaw is just a more exaggerated version of Fukuda's so. He had them pretty pegged. In the end he didn't like Limbo. But he did feel bad for them, because they're sort of the inverse of Aoi, who he felt had a better chance of learning to be "normal" than him. Limbo struck him as something that could never even come close. So he pitied him, defiantly.
And then.... Douman showed up at the graveyard. He didn't know what to think at first? It explained some things and created further questions. And having realized Limbo killed Omi there was also this? Lost chance to be mad? He can't be mad at this sad man who wants to die. Like. Mood.
So he was like. This person needs help. I want to help. So he asked to be friends. And did they ever really become friends?? Unclear. But he ended up liking Douman a lot! There were some parts of him that Fukuda could empathize with too, but mostly he sort of liked being the more emotionally competent one in some ways, for once??? He did bully him a little, but listen, it's fine. Limbo bullied him a little too so now they're even? He's actually way happier with Team Envy as it is now, and he's going to remember their sad puppet history watch with more fondness than the threesome honestly. He just likes having friends a lot now. He thinks friends are great.
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I mean. Most of it you already know but. Like. It all started with Grell coaxing his murder nonsense out of him, and not only accepting him, but being??? Thrilled??? Calling him passionate. It was new and exciting and he went from being Unsure at her (because he did like Beau) to being Very Interested?
And then she died and he felt like he had lost out on something. He tried really hard to solve her murder but in the end he wasn't able to, and he was sad. His fondness for her was pretty abstract but... He was definitely fond? Anyway then HE died. And Grell greeted him by beating him up, paired with that memshare he was just like oh.... vibes sadly. But also he was sort of??? flattered she cared enough to be mad at him? And then how the fuck did that thread lead to them banging? No idea. But that was where their shared love for dramatics started, and frankly that is more important to what bonded them together than murdering. One of the most annoying things Fukuda does actually works for Grell, and that's incredible? This is out of order but I'm still upset that he was like YOU LOOK LIKE A FISHERMAN'S WIDOW WAITING IN ANGUISH FOR NEWS and that was to Grell a very sexy thing of him to say.
Then Fukuda got jealous of Gomi and ended up being goaded into asking Grell to go out with him? None of us thought this would last. It was a relationship based on jealousy and a whim. But they were both excited and having a good time and also had not discussed terms at all which is.... not smart!! They lasted a week, somehow managed to weather several arguments and sex crimes until Sebastian showed up. At the time a worst case scenario, but in retrospect very good and important. canon fresh Fukuda would have just been like "...ok" and been sad about being second important to Grell's murder crush, but he'd had a few weeks of stuff and been told he shouldn't just accept whatever people offer him, so he was like NO I am NOT fine with this. And then he was despondent all week because he??? Liked Grell a lot? He talked to Omi about it and that's when I got on board you know this. Fukuda has always been evasive and hid his issues from people because he does not want to be judged, he wants to be normal and he knows he isn't. But Grell isn't like that and he admires that about her. He thinks she's brave and he thinks she wants him to be too?
So then he came back and they talked about their feelings like they should have done in the first place but it's fine. They were vulnerable and they argued and it was very important and good and they managed to come to an understanding. From this point on they were unstoppable. They just kept getting??? More and more perfect for each other??? And making each other better???? They were having a good time. A great time. They got matching furby injuries. Fukuda loved the attention, loved having Grell on his lap. He secretly liked the pda because he felt like he was showing off??? Fukuda: my (future) wife is a bitch and I like her so much. Grell liked it when he got all dominant and he sucked at it at first but then kept at it and it made him more confident in general. "If Grell likes me maybe I DO have some good qualities"? Just two people society rejected, finding each other. commiserating and telling the other they don't deserve to suffer.
And then week 7 hit and in a fit of Super Envy Fukuda proposed which I entirely intended as a shitpost and if he'd been in his right mind he would never have done it? He would not have expected Grell to say yes, he is not THAT confident. But then she said "maybe later." So he had to. Actually think about it. And he decided that not only did he want to mark her as his, but he wanted to help her. To save her, and whisk her away Without Grell he deadass would have just chosen to go back to jail, settling for the momentary happiness he got here. But now Grill is going to fuck off and have a perfect ending and I cannot fucking believe it love wins.
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But Fukuda did like him a lot, because he thought he was handsome and charming, and they had??? A fairly in depth nerd discussion??? I didn't have many chances to flex the fact that Fukuda is actually really smart so I was glad. For that.... And Fukuda likes to talk about things? He likes to have conversations with people that do not threaten to expose him as someone to be shunned. So he had a nice time and thinks Sfeer theory sounds cool.
Anyway he genuinely was never given any reason to think Luca was not a good person. I feel like he is not but Fukuda never got Lore so he's just like!!! Wow Luca!!! What a cool guy!!! He would have liked to get to know him better. As it stands he still had the vague feeling he had towards Omi (at first) and SQX where he's like why does this nice and attractive man like me?? He wants to be friends??? But it was nice and was one of the bricks in Fukuda realizing maybe he can have nice things and people that are willing to be around him.
Also fun fact the ONLY reason he didn't make it to endgame laboring under the false impression that Luca was bi was because Grell told him that victorian people just have to be performatively het.
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vlad like "you're the only bitch in this house i respect."
Vlad is very much the type to give what he gets (or so he thinks). Fukuda consistently came at him with neutrality or openness, a willing to chat with him, and Vlad therefore responded in kind. Plus, Fukuda is good at flattering him and feeding his ego, which helps. Between that fact, and that Vlad had so few people willing to interact with him civilly, Fukuda very quickly became basically his one confidante and the only person he can trust. With anyone else, Vlad might be suspicious of ulterior motives or trickery. But he knows he can trust Fukuda at his word--even if those words are criticizing him sometimes.
That trust is why Vlad felt so betrayed when Fukuda killed him for a murderdate. But thankfully they managed to negotiate their way out of that--maybe that normally wouldn't be enough, but it did give Vlad a bit of a rush in that he got to hold power over Fukuda's head, and all parties made good on their end of the deal, and he trusts that Fukuda won't kill him again, so. We good now, we good.
It's because of that trust and civility, and just how rare it is, that Vlad found himself compelled to try to make Fukuda a replacement hand. He really really tried too!! It was going to be a fancy prosthetic and everything!! He even felt a little...bad? Disappointed? That the best he could do was salad tongs, and even that failed. But Fukuda only killed at his recommendation and they reconciled, so why wouldn't Vlad want to give him a small token to make up for the consequences he unintentionally brought upon Fukuda? It's only fair.
Anyway all that to say that Fukuda is the only person here who could chastise Vlad for his behavior and genuinely have him think about it. Actually, he might be one of the only people PERIOD who could do that. It's just a shame Vlad is too pigheaded most of the time to heed Fukuda's advice for long, if at all.
NOW PLEASE. I NEED THE FUKUDA TL;CR.
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