[ she considers their words, her eyes bordering on sympathetic. they do seem to understand loss in a personal way, even if it didn't make their feelings or goals any clearer.
in any case, she can see why she's aligned under their sin. ]
If it soothes you any, I will keep your secret heart between the two of us.
[ they have a reputation to maintain!! ]
Perhaps in return you might tell me how one survives embracing grief. [ it has not cracked her yet, but she knows it might. it has before. ]
That depends greatly upon your relationship with your grief. I know several details of your life, but I will not make presumptions.
[one clawtip taps against the porcelain of the cup, their crystalline wings chiming faintly along with the sound as they shift a bit and settle once more.]
It may harm one's heart, yes, but it may also be a means to hold oneself together. I have embraced it as such, in my own case-- formed it into a motivating factor, one which cannot be denied nor forgotten.
[ business time. she pulls out a notebook and pen. ]
First, I would like to request a lantern of sorts. [ a flashlight ] There's a room I'd like to delve further into, but it's quite dark.
Secondly— [ and now she'll nudge the thermos she brought forward, which has a small amount of despair gatorade ] I collected this from the room with all the pods, and I was wondering if you knew anything about it. I also wonder if you might help me make sense of what I encountered there.
[ okay she will just drink despair kool-aid later ]
I intend to look into the room with fixtures made of crystal. [ the ??? room, which is Dark ] It left me uneasy when I stayed there last week—as did the room with the pods. Had I had a light then, it may have allowed me to see something that has otherwise eluded me. The room went dark as I was investigating it.
If you kept the items you were provided upon arrival, there should be a light there... though I suppose I might also warn you now that you will find nothing of interest to you within that room, even should you delve deeper.
[ wow motherfuck i forgot about the blacklight, anyway it's game canon now that vira probably didn't dig through the bag after she accidentally touched a boob ball
she raises a brow ]
Ah, I'll have to check for it—though do you know what that room is at all?
I'm afraid they don't appear to be anything sensical to me. [ gbf tech is better than most ye oldes but this is still a lot. ] How are there... spare bodies?
There are processes by which multiple new bodies may be created, using material from an original body, with each being identical to the source. Several of you have been quite concerned about this.
Ah, yes... I considered if perhaps we could only see those bodies which are our own. But at one point, I also saw them all vanish, as though they were never there at all.
[ so what are they, really? ]
Sometimes it's difficult to discern reality from illusion here.
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in any case, she can see why she's aligned under their sin. ]
If it soothes you any, I will keep your secret heart between the two of us.
[ they have a reputation to maintain!! ]
Perhaps in return you might tell me how one survives embracing grief. [ it has not cracked her yet, but she knows it might. it has before. ]
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[one clawtip taps against the porcelain of the cup, their crystalline wings chiming faintly along with the sound as they shift a bit and settle once more.]
It may harm one's heart, yes, but it may also be a means to hold oneself together. I have embraced it as such, in my own case-- formed it into a motivating factor, one which cannot be denied nor forgotten.
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...I have used it as motivation for much of my actions, but only insofar as my wish to run from despair. To not have to feel its weight on me again.
[ to turn around and try and embrace it is difficult, to say the least. ]
Has accepting your grief—weaponizing it—brought you closer to your goals? Your happiness?
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[a drive to resolve that despair in some way, perhaps.]
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[ it doesn't seem like it would work for her exactly, but the same logic can be applied to her own experiences, for her own solution. ]
I think this particular sin is advantageous to success here, but perhaps the most dangerous as well.
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[hashtag reasons the despair sigil is a dangling sword.]
But I do not believe handling it is beyond you.
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I'm humbled that you might think so. Perhaps with your guidance I might find success yet.
[ she may be emotionally unstable, but maybe being competent will win out. she'll have to see. ]
Though I admit I came to see if you might help me with a few of my endeavors.
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With which endeavors in particular?
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First, I would like to request a lantern of sorts. [ a flashlight ] There's a room I'd like to delve further into, but it's quite dark.
Secondly— [ and now she'll nudge the thermos she brought forward, which has a small amount of despair gatorade ] I collected this from the room with all the pods, and I was wondering if you knew anything about it. I also wonder if you might help me make sense of what I encountered there.
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[what are your questions beyond the juice, vira.]
I would also ask where you intend to delve, that you need a light.
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I intend to look into the room with fixtures made of crystal. [ the ??? room, which is Dark ] It left me uneasy when I stayed there last week—as did the room with the pods. Had I had a light then, it may have allowed me to see something that has otherwise eluded me. The room went dark as I was investigating it.
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she raises a brow ]
Ah, I'll have to check for it—though do you know what that room is at all?
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I have some idea, yes.
[they do not elaborate.]
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An idea you won't tell me at this juncture, I presume.
[ she frowns, but not in a way that it seems she's surprised. ]
Then, can you tell me what I may have encountered in the room with the pods?
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[sorry that they're like this.]
As for the pods, they are more or less what they appear to be.
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I'm afraid they don't appear to be anything sensical to me. [ gbf tech is better than most ye oldes but this is still a lot. ] How are there... spare bodies?
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[they sound negative amounts of concerned.]
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It is unsettling to see—particularly since we don't know what these—our bodies are here for.
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[they just think it's interesting they all assume it's real when they are all seeing only their own bodies, but they also aren't saying it's not.]
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[ so what are they, really? ]
Sometimes it's difficult to discern reality from illusion here.
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[they give her a slight nod, along with that.]
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[ she looks down at their tea setting, pensive. ]
A related question—do you know if there's something else living here besides us and you all?
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