I have been told so many times to concentrate on the living, but that is all I do. I don't think it's useful to get in the habit of assuming death can be reversed, even though in cases it can be. But I'm not pleased if some among us were led to believe they'd be allowed to save someone with such little evidence.
So I keep hearing. I have never found that to be the case.
[She just watches, and sighs.]
I wonder how much we ought to be listening to the eight of you on these matters, anyway. I've found your guidance helpful, and I am not intending to express doubt or distrust in you, merely that - I don't know whether our interests are fully aligned, and I suspect if they weren't, you wouldn't be able to say so openly.
[Yes. She doesn't miss that at all. She's just frowning. That's enough of an answer.]
I know that.
[She chews at her lip a little more.]
. . . We're strangers who appeared here, expecting to. Be taken to the indulgence center, daddy? And receive miracles in return. And in the interim, we've expected you to answer all of our questions and resolve our problems and. . . bear the brunt of it, when we become frustrated by circumstances.
Of course you're going to have your individual opinions, and you'll like some of us just as you'll dislike others. But as a whole, it isn't really reasonable to expect we have the same interests when our situations are so different.
It wasn't an accusation. Just an observation, of an assumption that I think I ought to rectify.
I like talking to you. And to the others. I suppose I don't always know how to approach just - asking someone to sit and have a conversation with me because I want to. It feels like I ought to be doing something more productive with my time.
[But asking a lot of questions about things doesn't feel right when she doesn't necessarily trust the answer.]
Hey, productivity is never a bad thing either! I think you're not bad at just vibing with us.
But there are times where I just can't tell you shit. It's not because I don't trust you. It's because I don't want you to get hurt. [a sigh.] I don't - uh, I don't do well with not interfering, you know?
[and then a bit of a laugh.] I died because I tried to fix my mistakes by interfering, actually. Never really thought about it like that before.
I've always dealt with things on my own. I've managed all of the affairs of my House since I was ten years old. It isn't easy for me to accept that there are things that are out of my control, or that I have to be protected from.
. . . I don't want to put you in the position of being forced to hold back from interfering, even when it's difficult for you. I don't want to ask you to do things you ought not to do.
[Oh. Wrath. That's - probably one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to her, and even though it's not emotion share week yet, she's obviously touched.]
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[This conversation is getting sad.]
I have been told so many times to concentrate on the living, but that is all I do. I don't think it's useful to get in the habit of assuming death can be reversed, even though in cases it can be. But I'm not pleased if some among us were led to believe they'd be allowed to save someone with such little evidence.
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[she puts lets her hand drift down into the water of the koi pond, running her finger along one of the koi that passes by.]
Hope's not a bad thing, either.
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[She just watches, and sighs.]
I wonder how much we ought to be listening to the eight of you on these matters, anyway. I've found your guidance helpful, and I am not intending to express doubt or distrust in you, merely that - I don't know whether our interests are fully aligned, and I suspect if they weren't, you wouldn't be able to say so openly.
[Are you feeding us to Gluttony's cats.]
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I don't want to lie to you. Just so you know. [she keeps her eyes on the koi.]
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I know that.
[She chews at her lip a little more.]
. . . We're strangers who appeared here, expecting to. Be taken to the indulgence center, daddy? And receive miracles in return. And in the interim, we've expected you to answer all of our questions and resolve our problems and. . . bear the brunt of it, when we become frustrated by circumstances.
Of course you're going to have your individual opinions, and you'll like some of us just as you'll dislike others. But as a whole, it isn't really reasonable to expect we have the same interests when our situations are so different.
It wasn't an accusation. Just an observation, of an assumption that I think I ought to rectify.
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Nah, I uh. You're right. [she finally glances up at harrow.] I do like you a lot. You're a smart lady and I'm glad I've been able to meet you.
[...] I've never minded helping or bearing the brunt. That won't change, even if the situation does.
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[But asking a lot of questions about things doesn't feel right when she doesn't necessarily trust the answer.]
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But there are times where I just can't tell you shit. It's not because I don't trust you. It's because I don't want you to get hurt. [a sigh.] I don't - uh, I don't do well with not interfering, you know?
[and then a bit of a laugh.] I died because I tried to fix my mistakes by interfering, actually. Never really thought about it like that before.
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[She thinks a little about that.]
I've always dealt with things on my own. I've managed all of the affairs of my House since I was ten years old. It isn't easy for me to accept that there are things that are out of my control, or that I have to be protected from.
. . . I don't want to put you in the position of being forced to hold back from interfering, even when it's difficult for you. I don't want to ask you to do things you ought not to do.
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I think, maybe, when you have more answers, you might change your mind. [she looks away again.] You should find answers. As many as you can.
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[But, yes.]
Good. That's what I was going to do anyway, but I'm glad to know you think so.
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Yeah, how could I not, you know? [...] I feel like out of all the people I know you're the one that's going to make it work.
... No pressure or anything, haha.
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Yes, no pressure.
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Hey, uh - did I ever tell you my name?
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[But she's not going to rudely just start using a name from a memory.]
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[sniff.] It's Lup. You can use it when it's just us, if you want.
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I deffo like it better than Wrath! [she misses being called her real name :(]