I like talking to you. And to the others. I suppose I don't always know how to approach just - asking someone to sit and have a conversation with me because I want to. It feels like I ought to be doing something more productive with my time.
[But asking a lot of questions about things doesn't feel right when she doesn't necessarily trust the answer.]
Hey, productivity is never a bad thing either! I think you're not bad at just vibing with us.
But there are times where I just can't tell you shit. It's not because I don't trust you. It's because I don't want you to get hurt. [a sigh.] I don't - uh, I don't do well with not interfering, you know?
[and then a bit of a laugh.] I died because I tried to fix my mistakes by interfering, actually. Never really thought about it like that before.
I've always dealt with things on my own. I've managed all of the affairs of my House since I was ten years old. It isn't easy for me to accept that there are things that are out of my control, or that I have to be protected from.
. . . I don't want to put you in the position of being forced to hold back from interfering, even when it's difficult for you. I don't want to ask you to do things you ought not to do.
[Oh. Wrath. That's - probably one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to her, and even though it's not emotion share week yet, she's obviously touched.]
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Nah, I uh. You're right. [she finally glances up at harrow.] I do like you a lot. You're a smart lady and I'm glad I've been able to meet you.
[...] I've never minded helping or bearing the brunt. That won't change, even if the situation does.
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[But asking a lot of questions about things doesn't feel right when she doesn't necessarily trust the answer.]
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But there are times where I just can't tell you shit. It's not because I don't trust you. It's because I don't want you to get hurt. [a sigh.] I don't - uh, I don't do well with not interfering, you know?
[and then a bit of a laugh.] I died because I tried to fix my mistakes by interfering, actually. Never really thought about it like that before.
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[She thinks a little about that.]
I've always dealt with things on my own. I've managed all of the affairs of my House since I was ten years old. It isn't easy for me to accept that there are things that are out of my control, or that I have to be protected from.
. . . I don't want to put you in the position of being forced to hold back from interfering, even when it's difficult for you. I don't want to ask you to do things you ought not to do.
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I think, maybe, when you have more answers, you might change your mind. [she looks away again.] You should find answers. As many as you can.
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[But, yes.]
Good. That's what I was going to do anyway, but I'm glad to know you think so.
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Yeah, how could I not, you know? [...] I feel like out of all the people I know you're the one that's going to make it work.
... No pressure or anything, haha.
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Yes, no pressure.
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Hey, uh - did I ever tell you my name?
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[But she's not going to rudely just start using a name from a memory.]
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[sniff.] It's Lup. You can use it when it's just us, if you want.
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I deffo like it better than Wrath! [she misses being called her real name :(]