It's weird, right? This game is different than ours was because we know more of what's going on, but it's still not that great. [it's fine, sometimes you are just suddenly surrounded by a bunch of dead bodies. her own emotions waver a little, uncertain of what to say.]
...I don't really know where to start, y'know? This whole thing is a pretty big mess I don't think any of us thought would happen. It makes me wonder how long we would've kept going if the first murder didn't happen.
You guys are going way faster than we did, but that doesn't really feel much better either. It kind of sucks, actually. [she feels bad, basically. none of the participants knew this would happen either.]
We were in that settlement for three months before anyone made a move. [so. yes and no. she's about to say something else but then gojou surprises her with that.]
Oh. You're welcome. You looked like you really needed it and like the kind of person who doesn't get them often. [mostly because gojou looks like someone who outwardly usually has his shit together, or is mostly unflappable.]
[...but she shrugs at that.] I wouldn't say that though! Some of us still barely talk to each other even though we were together for so long. It happens.
I don't know if that counts, but if you want it to then I'll let it slide. [teasing.
but just like that, there's another flicker of something that could be read as...disappointment, maybe. or just something a little unsettled.]
When you put it that way, yeah. Sure. Of course we all lost people we liked. [her attention goes back to the dolphin to boop its snoot.] In some cases, some of those people died to protect us, too. It happens.
[it's a not-nice thing that happens, but you know.]
[ HE HUFFS, feigning angy even though his emotions are playful. Dolphin loves boop, it boops back. ]
Do those things really need to happen?
[ Yeah, that’s not nice. He has never been in that position, but he can imagine it’s awful. He doesn’t reach out because he isn’t sure if he’s allowed to when she’s feeling the way she does. ]
I think it's my secondary. [it's said in a way that's teasing but also not, even if she looks up from the dolphin to face him. there's a slight smile from under the hood, and he can see there's a pink glow that's probably where her eyes are.]
But no. They don't. They just do though. [...] But you've lost people you care about too, haven't you? It's not just us.
[she's never really spoken to omi, but she kind of has a vague enough sense of what was going on around the base.]
[ Secondary. He smiles though there is something unsettled by that because of week 3 of triple indulgences and just everything that happened. ]
Yeah, that's true. Everyone loses people, right? I'm pretty used to it thanks to my job.
[ But there's questioning—does it make it any better? He's still sad over the people they've lost here, too. Most of his friends are dead, after all? ]
The loneliness doesn't bother me much. The text I received also lessened it? Which is nice... So I'd say I'm doing better than some.
I guess no, but... Sorcerers will always die alone. Everything else is not as depressing as that.
[ He laughs and his mood doesn't sink. It stays afloat. ]
I think so! It means hope of some kind, right? Like there's a sliver of a chance things can be okay if we keep investigating. They're trying to help us, too.
I get why, but that doesn't mean I have to think that's fair either.
[there's something a little like fear and worry there but it skitters off.]
But you're right! I think as long as there's some kind of hope, even the worst things aren't so bad. So don't let their messages go to waste and stuff. You guys are still important to them, it sounds like.
[she seems to cheer up a little at that because she does want to be a kind person, especially to someone who's important to one of her favs.]
It's fair, sure, but it's also not. I don't want to shut down conversations just because it's a little sad or uncomfortable or anything. I think everybody needs a chance to say the things they want to say, don't you?
[ His emotions settle... Quiet and pensive since he also didn’t enjoy how things ended up. While he was fine with whatever plans they had for Childe as long as they explored their options, he finds inconsistent rhetoric... uncharitable.
Lust must be different though and there’s curiosity mixed with sympathy. He didn’t like today, either. ]
Which part did you not agree with?
[ SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED FOR SUCH A CASE, REALLY. EMOTIONALLY. ]
Most of it. The dead can still see you guys...I'd be pretty unhappy if I had to watch someone replicate death. And this all started Sunday when you were debating leaving Childe to die anyway. You kept him in jail for this long. Was it really so important to kill him, too?
[she shrugs, but there's definitely frustration in her emotions, and something close to disappointment.]
I don't know. People care about the people that're alive and I get it. Like I said, there's a lot they care about and it makes them act crazy. Maybe I would've done the same thing, too. But that doesn't change the way one murderer got hung out to dry while the other did the community a favor.
The trial didn’t hurt me personally, but I understood it was... Tasteless. Especially from the people alive. If it sparked the thought that maybe it’s related to Luca’s murder, then I’m sure Yuri thought similar.
[ fucking ouch. ]
Childe’s keen and looks for efficiency—kind of a tryhard, actually. So I believed him when he said it wasn’t worth it, but people thought that someone had to die on Thursdays, too. Like as a mechanic of this place.
[ He closes his eyes, obviously frustrated, too. While he isn’t particularly sad about Childe’s death x2, just everything that surrounded it was much. ]
I didn’t interfere, so I can’t complain. I can at least say murder is still murder no matter how pretty it’s dressed.
[ ... He isn’t even sure if this will mean much. It probably doesn’t because he’s only one out of many. ]
Don't apologize. I didn't say it thinking you would agree with me, I said it because I thought you'd be least likely to tell me I'm wrong about it. [which seems to be the case here, at least enough.]
There's no magic mechanic that says people have to die. It just continued to happen each week, sort of like it did back then. Only back then it didn't happen nice and neatly on Thursdays. It was just whenever people felt like it.
...either way it's fine. But I don't know if I agree with how they all feel right now. Not yet. That's all. It's why I don't want Yuri to swap to my team even if he keeps asking. I'm not ready for that.
[unfortunately she has zero taste and was fairly fond of childe, so there's a bias there.]
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...I don't really know where to start, y'know? This whole thing is a pretty big mess I don't think any of us thought would happen. It makes me wonder how long we would've kept going if the first murder didn't happen.
You guys are going way faster than we did, but that doesn't really feel much better either. It kind of sucks, actually. [she feels bad, basically. none of the participants knew this would happen either.]
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Going fast means murdering within the first two weeks? Is that better than killing thirty-one people at once?
[ Gojou weighs these invisible things in his two hands. ]
I won't lie and say it doesn't suck—by the way, thank you for the hug that one week.
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Oh. You're welcome. You looked like you really needed it and like the kind of person who doesn't get them often. [mostly because gojou looks like someone who outwardly usually has his shit together, or is mostly unflappable.]
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[ Rhetoric question. Still, what the fuck? ]
Three months is quite a long time. You all must have gotten close? Messy.
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[...but she shrugs at that.] I wouldn't say that though! Some of us still barely talk to each other even though we were together for so long. It happens.
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[ were they meaningful? no. ]
I think more of the point is that killing thirty-one is likely to kill someone you liked...?
[ is that a better way to phrase it. ]
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but just like that, there's another flicker of something that could be read as...disappointment, maybe. or just something a little unsettled.]
When you put it that way, yeah. Sure. Of course we all lost people we liked. [her attention goes back to the dolphin to boop its snoot.] In some cases, some of those people died to protect us, too. It happens.
[it's a not-nice thing that happens, but you know.]
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Do those things really need to happen?
[ Yeah, that’s not nice. He has never been in that position, but he can imagine it’s awful. He doesn’t reach out because he isn’t sure if he’s allowed to when she’s feeling the way she does. ]
Then again, I suppose despair is an indulgence.
[ jazz hands. ]
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But no. They don't. They just do though. [...] But you've lost people you care about too, haven't you? It's not just us.
[she's never really spoken to omi, but she kind of has a vague enough sense of what was going on around the base.]
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Yeah, that's true. Everyone loses people, right? I'm pretty used to it thanks to my job.
[ But there's questioning—does it make it any better? He's still sad over the people they've lost here, too. Most of his friends are dead, after all? ]
The loneliness doesn't bother me much. The text I received also lessened it? Which is nice... So I'd say I'm doing better than some.
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Not sure that's something people should be used to? [just lightly said, but there's a pang of sympathy anyhow.]
That's true too though. We didn't get messages like that, so I'm glad you guys get that option. That has to mean something good, don't you think?
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[ He laughs and his mood doesn't sink. It stays afloat. ]
I think so! It means hope of some kind, right? Like there's a sliver of a chance things can be okay if we keep investigating. They're trying to help us, too.
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[there's something a little like fear and worry there but it skitters off.]
But you're right! I think as long as there's some kind of hope, even the worst things aren't so bad. So don't let their messages go to waste and stuff. You guys are still important to them, it sounds like.
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[ He laughs, but makes note of the fear and the worry. ]
If you don't like a topic, you can always ask not to talk about it. I think that's fair.
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It's fair, sure, but it's also not. I don't want to shut down conversations just because it's a little sad or uncomfortable or anything. I think everybody needs a chance to say the things they want to say, don't you?
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[ what the fuck ]
Inject some of that into everyone else!
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They're not that bad...[they are.] There's just a lot going on that people care about and it makes them act sorta crazy.
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DOUBTFUL AS FUCK and stares at her. Say that again while LOOKING INTO HIS EYES. ]
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...am I allowed to be honest? You can't tell Yuri either.
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[ Gojou Satoru, holding secrets that matter, but blurting out shit that doesn’t. ]
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I'm pretty mad about how today went. This whole week, even. I know they did what was probably the right thing, but I don't agree with how they did it.
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Lust must be different though and there’s curiosity mixed with sympathy. He didn’t like today, either. ]
Which part did you not agree with?
[ SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED FOR SUCH A CASE, REALLY. EMOTIONALLY. ]
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[she shrugs, but there's definitely frustration in her emotions, and something close to disappointment.]
I don't know. People care about the people that're alive and I get it. Like I said, there's a lot they care about and it makes them act crazy. Maybe I would've done the same thing, too. But that doesn't change the way one murderer got hung out to dry while the other did the community a favor.
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[ fucking ouch. ]
Childe’s keen and looks for efficiency—kind of a tryhard, actually. So I believed him when he said it wasn’t worth it, but people thought that someone had to die on Thursdays, too. Like as a mechanic of this place.
[ He closes his eyes, obviously frustrated, too. While he isn’t particularly sad about Childe’s death x2, just everything that surrounded it was much. ]
I didn’t interfere, so I can’t complain. I can at least say murder is still murder no matter how pretty it’s dressed.
[ ... He isn’t even sure if this will mean much. It probably doesn’t because he’s only one out of many. ]
Sorry.
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There's no magic mechanic that says people have to die. It just continued to happen each week, sort of like it did back then. Only back then it didn't happen nice and neatly on Thursdays. It was just whenever people felt like it.
...either way it's fine. But I don't know if I agree with how they all feel right now. Not yet. That's all. It's why I don't want Yuri to swap to my team even if he keeps asking. I'm not ready for that.
[unfortunately she has zero taste and was fairly fond of childe, so there's a bias there.]
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