[she's still half a lava monster - two faced, if you will. but it doesn't seem to bother her right now as she makes her way across the sand. she comes to a stop near harrow, looking out over the waves.]
Trust me, uh. Might've been better to leave the robot there because I don't want to deal with his weird master servant thing he does with me, but... all or nothing, you know?
It doesn't sit right with me to leave people behind to that thing, no matter what they did while they were here.
I don't know what to say, though. I was so angry at all of you at first, but . . . I don't know, I never could find my way to thinking any of you were secretly maniacally cackling behind our backs at your vicious plots, and I was angry at myself for feeling that way. It's very stupid, to keep learning you haven't been told the whole story, and to continually decide that it's fine, maybe it's all true now.
Being kept in the dark sucks. [she says, finally.] I don't know. It was keep you guys unaware for as long as we could and try to figure something else out, or I spill the beans immediately and we all get vored right off the bat and it happens to someone else. We wouldn't be here if it weren't for all of you guys working your asses off to find a solution.
I'm being honest now. Not that you have any way of knowing that's the truth, but I'm done hiding.
I think it probably did. I don't know. I'm not adept with social matters, and I don't like feeling misled, but. . . I don't regret having gotten to know you. If I hadn't, it all would have been a lot harder.
[. . .]
Then again, if I hadn't, we could really have had a nasty fight about it. [She says this like it would have been a good thing?]
Oooh, a nasty fight. You know, nobody has really actually yelled at me? It's just a bunch of uh, disappointed headshaking and emotional distance, which really is so much worse and way more brutal. [so maybe... lup agrees...]
I don't regret getting to know any of you, either. Especially not you.
If you were looking for a fight she's the last person to want to get into it! Didn't she just make sad noises at you when you broke into her room? Come on.
Yes, I see that now. [It really did not work she really did just make sad noises and try to keep answering questions.] But I thought if she was already angry with me for that, she wouldn't try. . . sugarcoating things.
Iris is... complicated. I think that she probably meant to hear you out and uh, take responsibility for how fucked up this has been? I think, uh - most of us... well, okay, like half of us care about the fact that this was objectively a villainous thing to do. So it doesn't seem like we should fight back.
She's got a lot of weight on her shoulders, all the time. Really mature, way more than I ever will be.
I know, I know. She's fine. A very lovely person. [She's not even mad at Lust.]
. . . It's fairly ridiculous to admit, but I don't think I would have particularly cared about what you planned to do on my own. It's not - it objectively makes sense. I'm not in the habit of expecting perfect strangers to try and die for me or what have you.
I really only ever minded the personal aspects of it. I saw that first letter and thought, well, that's fine. And then I saw the second letter and saw red, because of Beau, because of how awful I realized this could be for everyone.
It won't be. [lup folds her arms across her chest.] Beau, and Tamaki, and all of the people we lost before, I refuse to think there isn't a way to save them. They can't be gone forever. Especially not after we managed to bring the dead back when we thought that was impossible.
You guys are our third option. I don't know how you're going to do it, but you're all a force to be reckoned with.
Yes. [She smiles a little at that, though it's kind of grim.] At this point, I would say bridges have been burned for you and for us both. So we'll all either die here or we'll win.
I'm much more comfortable with that than all of the moral dilemmas. I find desperate last stands tend to serve as better inspiration.
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[And that's where she'll be.]
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Hey boo.
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[She doesn't seem bothered, either. She's just sitting on the beach, comfortable.]
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her lips twitch a little, at least.]
Guess the dead being back is a mixed bag, huh?
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Trust me, uh. Might've been better to leave the robot there because I don't want to deal with his weird master servant thing he does with me, but... all or nothing, you know?
It doesn't sit right with me to leave people behind to that thing, no matter what they did while they were here.
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[she rocks back and forth on her heels.]
So, talking. That's a thing, and it's a little later.
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[She sighs, and leans back.]
I don't know what to say, though. I was so angry at all of you at first, but . . . I don't know, I never could find my way to thinking any of you were secretly maniacally cackling behind our backs at your vicious plots, and I was angry at myself for feeling that way. It's very stupid, to keep learning you haven't been told the whole story, and to continually decide that it's fine, maybe it's all true now.
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Being kept in the dark sucks. [she says, finally.] I don't know. It was keep you guys unaware for as long as we could and try to figure something else out, or I spill the beans immediately and we all get vored right off the bat and it happens to someone else. We wouldn't be here if it weren't for all of you guys working your asses off to find a solution.
I'm being honest now. Not that you have any way of knowing that's the truth, but I'm done hiding.
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[Like, she does now. She just spent a long time trying to convince herself it was stupid to think so.]
And I believed you first, because you had said so much that in retrospect was about this.
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I've felt like straight garbo since the start about it. I, uh, I guess I was trying to mitigate. You know? No idea if that helped or not.
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[. . .]
Then again, if I hadn't, we could really have had a nasty fight about it. [She says this like it would have been a good thing?]
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Oooh, a nasty fight. You know, nobody has really actually yelled at me? It's just a bunch of uh, disappointed headshaking and emotional distance, which really is so much worse and way more brutal. [so maybe... lup agrees...]
I don't regret getting to know any of you, either. Especially not you.
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If you were looking for a fight she's the last person to want to get into it! Didn't she just make sad noises at you when you broke into her room? Come on.
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She's got a lot of weight on her shoulders, all the time. Really mature, way more than I ever will be.
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. . . It's fairly ridiculous to admit, but I don't think I would have particularly cared about what you planned to do on my own. It's not - it objectively makes sense. I'm not in the habit of expecting perfect strangers to try and die for me or what have you.
I really only ever minded the personal aspects of it. I saw that first letter and thought, well, that's fine. And then I saw the second letter and saw red, because of Beau, because of how awful I realized this could be for everyone.
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It won't be. [lup folds her arms across her chest.] Beau, and Tamaki, and all of the people we lost before, I refuse to think there isn't a way to save them. They can't be gone forever. Especially not after we managed to bring the dead back when we thought that was impossible.
You guys are our third option. I don't know how you're going to do it, but you're all a force to be reckoned with.
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I don't intend anything less. I don't intend to leave here empty handed. And I know you don't, either, and that's enough.
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Yeah. Yeah, for sure. [a little smile.] Us against the world.
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Are you all right, really?
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I'm ready to face whatever. Terrifying odds haven't ever stopped me before and they're not going to now.
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I'm much more comfortable with that than all of the moral dilemmas. I find desperate last stands tend to serve as better inspiration.