No, but I'll fix it myself. I just need to fix this first.
[Long pause in typing.]
Because I need to be able to talk to him about it, and I can't do that when he's like this. I don't need anyone's help on strategy but I need help with other parts. It really shouldn't be hard to know that it's not worth allowing someone to be murdered to avoid hurting a girl's feelings, but I still fear that I will realize after I did it all wrong.
No. I can't even trust him like this. There's nothing I can tell him and then ask him not to share with White. Which - I realize suddenly may be why someone did this. The medbay trap. Or perhaps not. I would have been the better target, if that was their goal.
This may make me sound like a bitch (derogatory), but there are some people I wouldn't bother to try and stop, if it was for their wish. But most of those people wouldn't be stupid enough to tell me about it beforehand, which also makes me seriously doubt she'll get away with it. I have not been subtle where my feelings lie. And I don't have strong feelings for her, particularly, which is part of the problem. She only told me because of some misguided feeling she has towards me because she's fascinated with death and I hate the thought of being so cold.
And on top of all of this, I have to contend with this miserable effect that is causing me to air out all of the dirty laundry of my inability to know how to be a person.
[That's absolutely not how the effect works. Just let her pretend.]
Don't acknowledge any of that, it's stupid. Tell me more about why murder is actually great.
but it's not that murder is great? I just think death happens when it happens, and sometimes that's the way it happens. it's just how it's meant to be in that case.
I can't fault you for looking the other way for some people because I've done it myself, honestly, I've helped them do it or covered it up afterwards because if I didn't, I'd lose them, and I really really did not want that to happen
also, preemptively: yes I'm talking about before here
Is this where I say if they were really your friends they wouldn't involve you in so many murders? No, I don't really care. I'm sure you had your reasons.
I am also very comfortable with death as a concept. But I don't necessarily want it to happen to people I care about. I don't want people I care about to be hurt when it happens to those they care about. I really, really do not want that to happen, and the math is becoming untenable.
The way I see it, there are four courses of action. First, I steer her towards someone who doesn't mean anything to me, and wash my hands of it. It's the best plan, but unfortunately, I've already discarded that as unrealistic for me.
[Having feelings about lying and betraying everyone you care about is a real bitch sometimes.]
Second, I tell a few trusted people and we work to make sure she's caught. This is a bad strategy. It will have too many moving parts and can backfire in a number of ways. Third, I expose her publicly as a murderer today. As she pointed out, someone else who has been considering murder will likely target her as a result. That said, the only drawback to this plan is that I feel slightly badly about it, which isn't enough of a drawback to be making this big of a scene over. Fourth, I try to prevent her from acting at all by using the obsession power to give her an anti-murder obsession on Thursday.
Obviously, plan #4 has more room to backfire than #3, but I find myself drawn to it.
Can you even comment on any of this? I don't know. Apparently there is a "larger picture" to the motive behind murders and I fear stepping in something I shouldn't.
I'm still probably not very useful, death never really means much to me? so preventing it is not as big of a deal and therefore my priorities don't have a lot to do with yours, I'd probably have done the first one in your position.
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and then this!!
I don't have any powers that would fix it or I would, believe me :(
um, are you good though, is your own drama okay
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[Long pause in typing.]
Because I need to be able to talk to him about it, and I can't do that when he's like this. I don't need anyone's help on strategy but I need help with other parts. It really shouldn't be hard to know that it's not worth allowing someone to be murdered to avoid hurting a girl's feelings, but I still fear that I will realize after I did it all wrong.
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as normally as any of us can right now! you're smart, though, you should be okay
I could try to help but um
I can tell you right now I do not share the opinions a lot of people do about murder and that might not help you
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This may make me sound like a bitch (derogatory), but there are some people I wouldn't bother to try and stop, if it was for their wish. But most of those people wouldn't be stupid enough to tell me about it beforehand, which also makes me seriously doubt she'll get away with it. I have not been subtle where my feelings lie. And I don't have strong feelings for her, particularly, which is part of the problem. She only told me because of some misguided feeling she has towards me because she's fascinated with death and I hate the thought of being so cold.
And on top of all of this, I have to contend with this miserable effect that is causing me to air out all of the dirty laundry of my inability to know how to be a person.
[That's absolutely not how the effect works. Just let her pretend.]
Don't acknowledge any of that, it's stupid. Tell me more about why murder is actually great.
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but it's not that murder is great? I just think death happens when it happens, and sometimes that's the way it happens. it's just how it's meant to be in that case.
I can't fault you for looking the other way for some people because I've done it myself, honestly, I've helped them do it or covered it up afterwards because if I didn't, I'd lose them, and I really really did not want that to happen
also, preemptively: yes I'm talking about before here
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I am also very comfortable with death as a concept. But I don't necessarily want it to happen to people I care about. I don't want people I care about to be hurt when it happens to those they care about. I really, really do not want that to happen, and the math is becoming untenable.
The way I see it, there are four courses of action. First, I steer her towards someone who doesn't mean anything to me, and wash my hands of it. It's the best plan, but unfortunately, I've already discarded that as unrealistic for me.
[Having feelings about lying and betraying everyone you care about is a real bitch sometimes.]
Second, I tell a few trusted people and we work to make sure she's caught. This is a bad strategy. It will have too many moving parts and can backfire in a number of ways. Third, I expose her publicly as a murderer today. As she pointed out, someone else who has been considering murder will likely target her as a result. That said, the only drawback to this plan is that I feel slightly badly about it, which isn't enough of a drawback to be making this big of a scene over. Fourth, I try to prevent her from acting at all by using the obsession power to give her an anti-murder obsession on Thursday.
Obviously, plan #4 has more room to backfire than #3, but I find myself drawn to it.
Can you even comment on any of this? I don't know. Apparently there is a "larger picture" to the motive behind murders and I fear stepping in something I shouldn't.
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I'm still probably not very useful, death never really means much to me? so preventing it is not as big of a deal and therefore my priorities don't have a lot to do with yours, I'd probably have done the first one in your position.
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I think you're smart enough to go with something that'll work.
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I will see what I can do on my own about Molly. If you learn of any way to break it, please let me know.