[She's used to this nonsense from Pride, so she probably in advance picked the garden or a place he doesn't hate.
Anyway, obviously this is about Law, you dumb fucking Avatar! You cried dead wife blood tears over him, and she helped get him killed. But she will just sort of wordlessly accept this very condition from this very sad man.]
. . . I don't know if this is a better topic, but Gu Yun told me he heard the sound of a child crying in the laboratory this week.
[Honestly, why would she even ask Pride about any of this, he never knows shit about fuck. Oh yes, because we were banned from talking about Pride's feelings.]
. . . Well, yes. Is it something that started happening after we arrived? Or was it always like this?
[That's not how she operates. He said not to. But it's getting a little ridiculous not to acknowledge it, so she'll just make like she's going to go, so she can just toss it in as one last thing.]
[there's a long pause, and then he brings a hand up to rub at his face. exhaustedly.]
... I wish it hadn't either. I don't understand giving in - I don't understand letting life win, after its spent years spitting in your face and grinding you into the dirt.
[How many times has she wanted to die. She's here for much the same reasons he mentions - a stubbornness, a recognition of the price already paid for her, something that makes her want to cling and hold on - but if all of that gave way one day, would it surprise her?]
Not in some sort of noble sense. There's just never any rhyme nor reason to the thing that's too much.
[She's thinking of her mother and father - carrying their secrets and guilt for ten years with perfect stoicism, until the day she brought it crashing down upon them.]
. . . I wrote myself a letter. Before I lost memories. It contained firm instructions on the matter.
[And though she doesn't know why and I doubt this bitch Pride reads our bios, her firm instructions to ensure she died neither by her own hand nor through carelessness were also for the sake of a person who died wanting her to live.]
I only mean - to react the way he did, it was neither noble nor hateful. Only sad.
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If it's about Trafalgar Law, no. Otherwise, I don't mind.
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[She's used to this nonsense from Pride, so she probably in advance picked the garden or a place he doesn't hate.
Anyway, obviously this is about Law, you dumb fucking Avatar! You cried dead wife blood tears over him, and she helped get him killed. But she will just sort of wordlessly accept this very condition from this very sad man.]
. . . I don't know if this is a better topic, but Gu Yun told me he heard the sound of a child crying in the laboratory this week.
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I heard about that. A little girl, he said.
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[...] I intend to attempt to investigate the place the four of you went to more thoroughly this week. So you know.
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[That gets her interest, though.]
How do you intend to do that?
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[as for the rest:] ... Hm. If it was the scanner, I don't think it had anything to do with Mercy. If that was what you worried about.
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[But if he can't tell her, he can't tell her.]
And I was, yes. If it wasn't that, what was it? Are there - ghost children running about?
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You think he was wrong?
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Nothing important. [he can't just admit he doesn't know?]
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This place leaks it.
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... It's gross. [pride,]
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. . . Well, yes. Is it something that started happening after we arrived? Or was it always like this?
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It's always like this. [just ask him about his feelings, god]
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Very well. That's really all I had to discuss.
[. . .]
I wish that it hadn't hurt you.
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... I wish it hadn't either. I don't understand giving in - I don't understand letting life win, after its spent years spitting in your face and grinding you into the dirt.
[his hand drops.] It doesn't matter.
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[How many times has she wanted to die. She's here for much the same reasons he mentions - a stubbornness, a recognition of the price already paid for her, something that makes her want to cling and hold on - but if all of that gave way one day, would it surprise her?]
Not in some sort of noble sense. There's just never any rhyme nor reason to the thing that's too much.
[She's thinking of her mother and father - carrying their secrets and guilt for ten years with perfect stoicism, until the day she brought it crashing down upon them.]
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When Gwen died, I was ready. But she spent her last words telling me not to. [...] I owe it to her.
I can't let there be something that's too much.
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. . . I wrote myself a letter. Before I lost memories. It contained firm instructions on the matter.
[And though she doesn't know why and I doubt this bitch Pride reads our bios, her firm instructions to ensure she died neither by her own hand nor through carelessness were also for the sake of a person who died wanting her to live.]
I only mean - to react the way he did, it was neither noble nor hateful. Only sad.
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That feeling isn't something I want to share with you. [which is his shitty way of saying he understands, i guess.]
... It is what it is. He's gone now. I won't dwell on it.
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