[She kind of. . . has no idea how to react to that. She just isn't used to people dealing with her with anything in between open hostility and reverence, so the idea that someone might criticize her despite caring for her is a little hard to get her mind around. Sibling senses. . .]
It gets bad sometimes but uh, I don't know if there's really anything you guys can do about it? It's probably not like this for the others but, uh, for me I just... I felt like I could be stable after I had Taako's hat back.
I know you haven't figured out what those places are. But talking to Molly, my theory is that it's. . .
At the end, all of us felt a sudden urging of hunger, that apparently could only be satisfied by doing something morally reprehensible. Our choice seemed to be between giving into the urge, and death.
For this week's group, Molly described what they felt as a sort of paranoia, but also a sense that no one's needs but their own were real, and they had to get rid of everyone else to get what they wanted. And this urging led them to decide between killing other members of our group, or lying there like a stubborn idiot bleeding from a golf club wound.
In other words, an intense urging to either indulge in gluttony and greed respectively at any cost, or to abstain at great personal cost or even death. The one last week, which appeared to involve White's memories is admittedly an outlier.
... You know, that's a good theory, I think? That they, uh - reflected those ideas, I mean. I don't know about White, but we've had a lot of you guys come to us asking about memory shit lately so maybe it has to do with that?
[she folds her arms.] I don't think you were wrong to die instead of giving in. Maybe whatever is causing them to happen thought you were wrong, but I don't.
I don't either. I'm not a very nice person, but I'm not going to eat a little girl. [Ugh.] Also, she may have been the ghost of Pride's daughter, which would have been very awkward.
[she makes a face. but she will, only because it's harrow.]
Well, uh. I'm glad you didn't accidentally eat Pride's daughter. For sure. Whatever happened to the other four... I don't know, I haven't asked. It seems like a real dick move to grab them by the shoulders and be like, tell me about your traumas!
I try to talk about his feelings and he gets squirmy about it. Which I'm not unused to, that's, uh. That's pretty fucking familiar, but I just didn't anticipate it with him.
Oh. That makes more sense. I say almost exclusively terrible things to him and he's never minded, but that I don't think he cares for.
[Hmm. Which is a problem, if she needs to know.]
. . . You are rather forward sometimes, you know. The second time we spoke, you were telling me that you "liked me." I didn't come see you right after, either, because I was afraid of what you'd say. That you would be nice, and I would be unequipped for it. As you've seen, I don't - always know what to do with that.
You antiheroes and your constipation. [like she isn't just as bad about being honest about hers but this isn't about her!!] Or I guess not antihero. It's not tsundere either... maybe Lust knows a better term.
Anyway. I know I'm forward. And I'm probably going to not stop that, because I think you guys need a safety net if you want one. I just think, uh, I'm maybe not so great at predicting when to toss it, I guess.
You know, I've heard the, uh - the leave something better than you found it thing from Molly a few times. [...] I really like that. If I give off even a little bit of that energy, I'm happy.
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[She kind of. . . has no idea how to react to that. She just isn't used to people dealing with her with anything in between open hostility and reverence, so the idea that someone might criticize her despite caring for her is a little hard to get her mind around. Sibling senses. . .]
What did you want to show me?
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her eyes are red around the edges, with black sclera and bright red-orange irises, and there are cracks of fire that spread up her neck and face.]
My face, as it is right now. You've kind of sort of seen it already, in a way. But. You know!
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Gu Yun said it was something like this. Is it painful?
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[...] What did Gu Yun tell you?
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Given what I'd seen [Pride] I assume the state he described was the negative effects of the transformation.
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It gets bad sometimes but uh, I don't know if there's really anything you guys can do about it? It's probably not like this for the others but, uh, for me I just... I felt like I could be stable after I had Taako's hat back.
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At the end, all of us felt a sudden urging of hunger, that apparently could only be satisfied by doing something morally reprehensible. Our choice seemed to be between giving into the urge, and death.
For this week's group, Molly described what they felt as a sort of paranoia, but also a sense that no one's needs but their own were real, and they had to get rid of everyone else to get what they wanted. And this urging led them to decide between killing other members of our group, or lying there like a stubborn idiot bleeding from a golf club wound.
In other words, an intense urging to either indulge in gluttony and greed respectively at any cost, or to abstain at great personal cost or even death. The one last week, which appeared to involve White's memories is admittedly an outlier.
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[she folds her arms.] I don't think you were wrong to die instead of giving in. Maybe whatever is causing them to happen thought you were wrong, but I don't.
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-- Pride has a daughter?
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[She feels bad now!!]
Clearly, he values his privacy.
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[... wow.] Wow, someone slept with them. That is... a revelation.
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[Pride is actually valid.]
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Well, uh. I'm glad you didn't accidentally eat Pride's daughter. For sure. Whatever happened to the other four... I don't know, I haven't asked. It seems like a real dick move to grab them by the shoulders and be like, tell me about your traumas!
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I try to talk about his feelings and he gets squirmy about it. Which I'm not unused to, that's, uh. That's pretty fucking familiar, but I just didn't anticipate it with him.
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[Hmm. Which is a problem, if she needs to know.]
. . . You are rather forward sometimes, you know. The second time we spoke, you were telling me that you "liked me." I didn't come see you right after, either, because I was afraid of what you'd say. That you would be nice, and I would be unequipped for it. As you've seen, I don't - always know what to do with that.
I don't think he's entirely dissimilar.
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You antiheroes and your constipation. [like she isn't just as bad about being honest about hers but this isn't about her!!] Or I guess not antihero. It's not tsundere either... maybe Lust knows a better term.
Anyway. I know I'm forward. And I'm probably going to not stop that, because I think you guys need a safety net if you want one. I just think, uh, I'm maybe not so great at predicting when to toss it, I guess.
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[Hmm. And a little less rudely -]
. . . I agree. It's good that someone like you is here.
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You know, I've heard the, uh - the leave something better than you found it thing from Molly a few times. [...] I really like that. If I give off even a little bit of that energy, I'm happy.
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No, it's sweet. But she's embarrassed now, that she said something that made her smile and say something sappy.
Abrupt topic change!]
. . . Might I ask about something I'm curious about?
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