....they still exist, precisely like that. With little to them of the person they used to be-- the one thing they cling to is very nearly all that is left of them at all.
[they shake their head, the crystalline feathers of their wings rustling.]
We preserved their memories, once, when they still had them left to lose. But they refuse them.
[there's no discomfort with the conversation in their tone, but their wings shift in a way they haven't quite done before. the inner portion of the wings can be seen, just barely-- black crystal flecked with shards of other colors, like a rainbow of jagged little stars.]
Quite the opposite. It was that those memories were so precious, they did not wish to remember only to experience forgetting them once again.
It is a consequence of the reason they began to forget, in the first place. If they were to remember, it would only fade.
...Truth be told, however, I cannot fully understand the choice either. Were I in their place, I would remember as many times as I must, even if it meant losing those memories several times over.
No. I do not believe you would consider it to be so.
[their own opinions of willingly forgetting are, of course, negative. but they can put their bias aside for five seconds instead of just telling her yes.]
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[Is that a relief? Somehow it doesn't feel like a relief. If the memories she's lost aren't terrible, then why is it so important that she not disturb them? For what reason did she take them away?
. . . Her head is throbbing again.]
Is it within your capabilities to undo what was done to me? I'm not asking you to, I only want to know.
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[they shake their head, the crystalline feathers of their wings rustling.]
We preserved their memories, once, when they still had them left to lose. But they refuse them.
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Why did they not want them returned? What were the memories, that were lost - were they so terrible?
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Quite the opposite. It was that those memories were so precious, they did not wish to remember only to experience forgetting them once again.
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I. . . I don't understand.
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...Truth be told, however, I cannot fully understand the choice either. Were I in their place, I would remember as many times as I must, even if it meant losing those memories several times over.
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No. I do not believe you would consider it to be so.
[their own opinions of willingly forgetting are, of course, negative. but they can put their bias aside for five seconds instead of just telling her yes.]
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[Is that a relief? Somehow it doesn't feel like a relief. If the memories she's lost aren't terrible, then why is it so important that she not disturb them? For what reason did she take them away?
. . . Her head is throbbing again.]
Is it within your capabilities to undo what was done to me? I'm not asking you to, I only want to know.
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[they leave it at that, for now.]
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[She shouldn't; the Harrow who wrote her those letters was very clear. But it's good to know she has a choice, somehow.]
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[more a desire to set things right, as they perceive the situation to be.]
But it will remain your choice.
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. . . Agreed.