[... it's a weird feeling for white, because outwardly, he agrees. the part of him that always strove for survival even if just for survival's sake says yes, absolutely. being alive is the most important thing, no matter what the circumstances are.
but subconsciously, there's a part of him—however much he doesn't like to acknowledge its voice—that thinks it would've been kinder for him to die young, rather than live what his life became.]
Well, can't deny that. It's better than what a lot of people get.
Yup. Pretty much. Without more of you to indulge and add to the total, it'll be harder to fill. Plus with less of you it won't have to be split so many ways.
Think of it like this. You have something you want, which is to stay alive. But then someone else's wish is like...I dunno, they want to take back something they said to someone else. One of those things requires more power than the other. So the quota is always changing the less of you there are, because there are less desires to grant.
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Tell me something else then.
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It's pretty much... all just tiring stuff.
[LIKE
NOTHING ACTUALLY GOOD HAPPENED THIS WEEK wow]
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[you know, what with childe being a murderer. but she licks more ice cream off of her spoon.]
But maybe that's not so bad.
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Not so bad?
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but subconsciously, there's a part of him—however much he doesn't like to acknowledge its voice—that thinks it would've been kinder for him to die young, rather than live what his life became.]
Well, can't deny that. It's better than what a lot of people get.
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Does that make sense?
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