[maybe shi qingxuan is just cold? hm. he does not have his blanket unfortunately. :( why did she not bring his blanket if she gets cold easily?!]
It's like being... fired from your job! My brother is always telling me I'm one hundred percent replaceable. Who knew? Hard to imagine me being a goner because I fell asleep again, got fired, and someone replaced me!
Are you worried, too? Like Mineo and White? About, um, dying?
[wait a minute. HOLD UP. his brain has momentarily stopped working for a few seconds. excuse him, he's WHAT?]
I-I... I'm one of a kind......? Wow.... Even though I'm a twin...!
[his skin is as white as a sheet of paper, but it gets pretty toasty suddenly. anyway,,]
Oh, um... Well, I don't know. I've always been my authentic self! Born as the personification of sleep, grew up as the personification of sleep, still to this day: the personification of sleep, too! Wait--
Is there something about you that you're not telling us? You're actually immortal? You're a gorgon?!
[nooo he's too cute. what the fuck. that reaction actually gets her to smile faintly, and she reaches over to pat him on the shoulder. the dog she stopped petting to do that gives a little bark.]
It's good that you've always been yourself. Never lose that, okay?
[anyway - ]
...no, it's... [she sighs] I found out, from a memory I saw. I wasn't ever supposed to be a god.
[noooooo. well, anyway, he perks right up. without his hood, it's easy to see why there was feathers because he just poofs with the praise enough a few tufts fly right off the wings on the side of his head.]
Not supposed to be a god? Wow! You really went out and ascended right into someone else's seat, huh? Do you hate it? That's surprising! The mortals always want to be gods! They try so hard to get divine blessings by proving themselves.
[what the fuck that's so cute. feathers everywhere. please praise him forever.]
It's not even that I proved myself. My brother, he... [...] He switched our fates. The man whose fate I stole was tormented and he and his family died miserably, just so I could...
[please.....take things more seriously! they are too laid back!]
I think you'll figure it out! You never know, they might not be as angry as you think! [haha...] Maybe you can just find a way to make it up to them on top of the apology!
...I can't just keep reaping the benefits of his suffering. [...] The things we had in mind when we agreed to come here... it's okay if what we want changes, right?
[this makes him laugh slightly. not meanly, but just... amused a little.]
Sure, probably! I haven't talked to anyone who said they wanted to change theirs yet. If you can think it up, then it can happen! What are you going to do? Make them a god, too?
It would. [...] But it wouldn't be doing anything more than... setting things right. If something did happen to me, it would just be what was originally fated to happen.
[she smiles faintly]
...thanks. I guess - we'll see how all of this plays out.
Yeah, but what if it happened as it was originally fated already! That's how the Fates work! You don't ever know what they'll see! I can't tell you how to live your life--or, well, your death, but...
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[maybe shi qingxuan is just cold? hm. he does not have his blanket unfortunately. :( why did she not bring his blanket if she gets cold easily?!]
It's like being... fired from your job! My brother is always telling me I'm one hundred percent replaceable. Who knew? Hard to imagine me being a goner because I fell asleep again, got fired, and someone replaced me!
Are you worried, too? Like Mineo and White? About, um, dying?
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He said that to you? [her brow furrows at that. nooo, he's not replaceable...] That doesn't seem right. You're one-of-a-kind.
[...she looks down at the dog she's petting.]
Not that, exactly, but... [she bites her lip.] ...what would you do if you found out something you believed about yourself was a lie?
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I-I... I'm one of a kind......? Wow.... Even though I'm a twin...!
[his skin is as white as a sheet of paper, but it gets pretty toasty suddenly. anyway,,]
Oh, um... Well, I don't know. I've always been my authentic self! Born as the personification of sleep, grew up as the personification of sleep, still to this day: the personification of sleep, too! Wait--
Is there something about you that you're not telling us? You're actually immortal? You're a gorgon?!
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It's good that you've always been yourself. Never lose that, okay?
[anyway - ]
...no, it's... [she sighs] I found out, from a memory I saw. I wasn't ever supposed to be a god.
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Not supposed to be a god? Wow! You really went out and ascended right into someone else's seat, huh? Do you hate it? That's surprising! The mortals always want to be gods! They try so hard to get divine blessings by proving themselves.
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It's not even that I proved myself. My brother, he... [...] He switched our fates. The man whose fate I stole was tormented and he and his family died miserably, just so I could...
[she shakes her head.]
I don't know what to do, now.
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Like coming down into the underworld to get them back!
[oh, they pet the dog from before that was disgruntled about the lack of pats. way smaller that cerberus, but that's okay!]
Maybe you should, like, apologize!
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I'm going to - I just don't know if an apology will be enough, you know?
[there's no changing what happened, after all.]
...especially not coming from the person who benefitted from it the most. I don't know. [she sighs] I need to figure it out, before we go back.
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[please.....take things more seriously! they are too laid back!]
I think you'll figure it out! You never know, they might not be as angry as you think! [haha...] Maybe you can just find a way to make it up to them on top of the apology!
Can't you do things as a god?
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anyway, she looks down.]
...I can't just keep reaping the benefits of his suffering. [...] The things we had in mind when we agreed to come here... it's okay if what we want changes, right?
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Sure, probably! I haven't talked to anyone who said they wanted to change theirs yet. If you can think it up, then it can happen! What are you going to do? Make them a god, too?
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[she's - actually, hold on. if you can think it up, it can happen...]
...would it be possible to change the past?
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But won't that effect you, too?
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[she smiles faintly]
...thanks. I guess - we'll see how all of this plays out.
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...not seeing you around sure would suck!
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[she looks down at her hands]
...I might still survive it! I just... don't want to survive at the cost of someone else's suffering. That isn't right.