[ he clearly does not like that answer. even if it doesn't show on his face, it ripples across his emotions - an immediate want to protest, displeasure - but it's layered over with stubbornness, too, and something far more tender and vulnerable underneath.
gu yun has lived a hard fought life of success. in the worst situations, he manages risks, he makes sacrifices, but he doesn't fail at achieving the things that matter to him, at protecting the things he has to protect. it's often at the cost of his own health, but it's that prideful, stubborn and determined nature of his that has made him the almost revered figure he is in great liang. to butt up against a desire like that - if there isn't a way - just makes him even more determined to find one.
(he's had to be determined. born on the unluckiest day of the year, gu zixi's birth was followed by the subsequent death of his parents. the attack on the camp. his blindness, his deafness. it was said it was the gu family curse that took its roots in gu yun, and killed those who came close; even his ill fated fiancee died before they had a chance to meet. everyone who loved him in one way or another died. suffered. not this time.)
he stays quiet, for a long moment, and lets her look away from him. ]
... Suppose my greatest indulgence is going to have to be being exorbitantly kind to you, then.
[ then he'll cheat the system. he will find a way if he has to blast a path through himself. indulge. power this place. protect his country. protect his home.
[she sorts through that. it takes her a good minute, just to figure out what it is she wants to say. his determination and stubbornness - he'll feel a faint edge of despair from her, something wailing and pained, and then she puts it away.]
I hope that you feel that way for the rest of your time here. [she says finally, turning back to him, bringing his hand up to kiss his knuckles in return. brings it up further to rest it against the side of her face, so she can lean her cheek there, eyes closed.]
Focus on doing what you came here for. That's all I can tell you.
[she just lets her emotional exhaustion settle in, overlapping everything else.]
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gu yun has lived a hard fought life of success. in the worst situations, he manages risks, he makes sacrifices, but he doesn't fail at achieving the things that matter to him, at protecting the things he has to protect. it's often at the cost of his own health, but it's that prideful, stubborn and determined nature of his that has made him the almost revered figure he is in great liang. to butt up against a desire like that - if there isn't a way - just makes him even more determined to find one.
(he's had to be determined. born on the unluckiest day of the year, gu zixi's birth was followed by the subsequent death of his parents. the attack on the camp. his blindness, his deafness. it was said it was the gu family curse that took its roots in gu yun, and killed those who came close; even his ill fated fiancee died before they had a chance to meet. everyone who loved him in one way or another died. suffered. not this time.)
he stays quiet, for a long moment, and lets her look away from him. ]
... Suppose my greatest indulgence is going to have to be being exorbitantly kind to you, then.
[ then he'll cheat the system. he will find a way if he has to blast a path through himself. indulge. power this place. protect his country. protect his home.
help lup. ]
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I hope that you feel that way for the rest of your time here. [she says finally, turning back to him, bringing his hand up to kiss his knuckles in return. brings it up further to rest it against the side of her face, so she can lean her cheek there, eyes closed.]
Focus on doing what you came here for. That's all I can tell you.
[she just lets her emotional exhaustion settle in, overlapping everything else.]