[god i'm so hungry. anyway, greed...decides it doesn't matter much and this is pre-party so he removes his hood so he can also eat.]
Perhaps that isn't the most accurate word, but yes. Your current focus now is on others and ensuring the well-being of others, isn't it?
[and, of course, mineo's own wish but given that so many of their conversations circle around what mineo can do for other people it's the conclusion he's drawn.]
anyway mineo is just going to laugh a little bit at that even as he takes another bite]
Yeah.
But that's what an officer does, right? I mean.... I'm not on the force anymore, but I think some things just stay drilled into you. Even if I can't save everybody, I gotta take care of the people I can, however I can.
[sometimes things happen. ideals are nice and greed can agree with that, but all the same so much has happened he can't really relax and think everyone wants to do what's right.
it's why people like mineo are both infuriating and refreshing. it's why people like that man are frustrating and necessary.
there's a moment's pause as he takes another bite.]
I was a prosecutor. [which is said with enough finality that he's pretty sure mineo will understand literally everything about why greed does what he does.]
[ . . . . . he nods. yeah. it does make sense to him - and perhaps it's why it's so easy to believe. how mineo zeroed in on greed's use of the word justice so early on.
but that means that for all the struggles mineo's had - ]
.... it's probably been hard for you.
For us to not succeed at finding the truth you want.
In a word, it's been increasingly frustrating. Though most of the others thought the idea of a trial was entirely unnecessary and pointless to begin with. I disagree.
I believe if these things occur, there should be the option to find the truth. Even if you don't care for the victims, there's a bigger picture to try and understand why this has happened and what can be done to rectify it.
[ . . . . he nods along. it's easy when so many of mineo's friends are of similar thoughts - that people die, it happens, don't get so twisted up over it.]
Harrow-san told me that - that you suggested that there might be a greater reasoning to everything happening than just indulgences. I think that it's important we find that, if it's true.
[but.
he uses his chopsticks to move some rice around thoughtfully in his bowl before he looks back up at greed]
.... but even if I don't know what justice is, I know these weekends tear me up pretty bad. You set this up to try to help us, but you can only do so much. I guess I was just wondering if you felt similarly to how I did and do -
...there are some things we can't do anymore because they're out of our hands. [considering how their cyoa ended.] And likewise there's some information that can't be given freely due to the nature of this place and our job as your Avatars. I think it's important to see this through to the end and learn what you can.
[but there's a pause as greed looks off to the side for a moment.]
Murder trials aren't a unique situation for me. Most of the cases I take on are for homicides. But I can't say I find much enjoyment in watching you fail repeatedly.
[which could sound like greed's calling them all stupid, but no. now that mineo can see his face it's clear that he just doesn't like the results because it's unfair and doesn't work out the way he expects it to.]
I don't believe it changed specifically after we left. Rather, it had already changed and we were made even more aware of it after that.
But yes, it's different. There isn't anything quite like seeing the death of a loved one right before your eyes and thinking that perhaps, maybe, there was something you could have done about it.
[tell us how you really feel, greed.] I had the power to change things where I was from. Here, of course, we can only help you indulge. We can't actually stop people from acting on those impulses.
[tilting his head. what was the avatar cyoa lore....]
.... yeah. [he watches greed for a second - expression clearly curious about how and why he can say that so directly and certainly. the answer is there but the deets are rather foggy]
Whatever is causing all of this was aware we would go looking for it. The moment we entered that other place, we were set up for failure.
[so that's fun! he also just skirts around that and consider mineo's question.]
I don't think I would want more power in that case. We were on to something before, and the results were near disastrous. And yet...[...and yet.] This still isn't about us.
.... so we need to catch it by surprise? And there really is something out there that's setting all this off?
[questioning quietly]
.... you keep saying that, but I disagree. You're just as trapped here as us. It makes sense to want to help you too. I don't believe in drawing lines about who I want to help over stuff like titles or responsibility. You're still people to me.
[he is currently at a point in his character development where he cannot yet embrace serial killers - but greed isn't that?]
Several things have started to occur outside of our knowledge. Catching it by surprise is a simple solution, but it's more difficult when we aren't certain what "it" is.
That's very...[hm.] I understand your position on that matter, but I will say it again. You cannot let your focus stray from what you came here for.
Hmm... How much like a crazy sci-fi movie would you think this is, Greed-san? Like are we talking aliens? Or AI gone rogue?
[bad movie references... go!]
.... I can do both, right? I can try to take care of me and my wish - and Takeru's - but I don't know if I'd be able to live with myself if I gave up on helping you just because you told me to.
I would say none of it, considering it's very much real. [that's such a pedantic answer, but it's a roundabout way of saying he doesn't quite know what to think.] But I'll admit this is incredibly different than anything I've ever experienced.
You can do both, but I would advise you not to. You cannot stretch yourself so thin that you lose sight of what's in front of you.
I'm not so sure alien expertise would help you here. [mineo can decide it's aliens if he wants, greed won't actually stop him.
but because he's. himself. he also won't outright admit to anything and instead pokes at his plate.]
...people like you tend to rush into things because you act on your emotions rather than listen to your logic. Even at the risk of your own life. It only makes sense someone holds you back enough to ensure you're thinking clearly.
[aaaaaaliens - but mineo is just going to listen to that before he just huffs a little bit of a laugh]
.... I think I'm pretty lucky, with the number of people I've got looking out for me. But if that includes you too, then I'm even luckier?
But you know... I think that if you're the Avatar of Greed and all, shouldn't you be wanting a bit more from the rest of us too? [and he'll put his chopsticks into his bowl for a second, making a fist with his hand and thumping it against his own chest] So I'm serious! Want a little bit more from me - I'll answer it as best as I can.
What I want is for you to live. I would prefer not to have more lives lost on my hands. [hm.] But your type always seems to find a way to turn things around regardless of what I say.
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... selfless....?
[he tilts his head]
You think?
[apparently it doesn't occur to him to be described that way?]
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[and, of course, mineo's own wish but given that so many of their conversations circle around what mineo can do for other people it's the conclusion he's drawn.]
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anyway mineo is just going to laugh a little bit at that even as he takes another bite]
Yeah.
But that's what an officer does, right? I mean.... I'm not on the force anymore, but I think some things just stay drilled into you. Even if I can't save everybody, I gotta take care of the people I can, however I can.
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[it's why mineo being as sincere about it as he is is almost blinding.] Though I suppose I've met others who share your line of thinking as well.
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... ideally, that's what an officer does. And even if I'm not working like that anymore... that's the sort of notion I'd want to stand by.
[justice is complicated for him - but helping people? that's easy.]
You're pretty familiar with the law, right, Greed-san? Can I ask what you did before you got here?
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it's why people like mineo are both infuriating and refreshing. it's why people like that man are frustrating and necessary.
there's a moment's pause as he takes another bite.]
I was a prosecutor. [which is said with enough finality that he's pretty sure mineo will understand literally everything about why greed does what he does.]
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but that means that for all the struggles mineo's had - ]
.... it's probably been hard for you.
For us to not succeed at finding the truth you want.
[greed's burdens might be three times as much]
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I believe if these things occur, there should be the option to find the truth. Even if you don't care for the victims, there's a bigger picture to try and understand why this has happened and what can be done to rectify it.
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Harrow-san told me that - that you suggested that there might be a greater reasoning to everything happening than just indulgences. I think that it's important we find that, if it's true.
[but.
he uses his chopsticks to move some rice around thoughtfully in his bowl before he looks back up at greed]
.... but even if I don't know what justice is, I know these weekends tear me up pretty bad. You set this up to try to help us, but you can only do so much. I guess I was just wondering if you felt similarly to how I did and do -
Just... watching us all.
[on a more emotional level]
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[but there's a pause as greed looks off to the side for a moment.]
Murder trials aren't a unique situation for me. Most of the cases I take on are for homicides. But I can't say I find much enjoyment in watching you fail repeatedly.
[which could sound like greed's calling them all stupid, but no. now that mineo can see his face it's clear that he just doesn't like the results because it's unfair and doesn't work out the way he expects it to.]
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.... 'anymore'? Did something change after you all went on your... experiment? [he thinks that's the word that sloth used]
It's different, right? [he frowns] I worked some pretty gruesome cases too, and - well, if you know about X-Day....
[then greed knows exactly the level of mystery that mineo and takeru are dealing with back home]
.... but it's more personal here. I wish... no one else ever had to be in a situation where they have to look at the bodies of their friends.
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But yes, it's different. There isn't anything quite like seeing the death of a loved one right before your eyes and thinking that perhaps, maybe, there was something you could have done about it.
[tell us how you really feel, greed.] I had the power to change things where I was from. Here, of course, we can only help you indulge. We can't actually stop people from acting on those impulses.
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[tilting his head. what was the avatar cyoa lore....]
.... yeah. [he watches greed for a second - expression clearly curious about how and why he can say that so directly and certainly. the answer is there but the deets are rather foggy]
Do you feel like you wish you had more power?
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[so that's fun! he also just skirts around that and consider mineo's question.]
I don't think I would want more power in that case. We were on to something before, and the results were near disastrous. And yet...[...and yet.] This still isn't about us.
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.... so we need to catch it by surprise? And there really is something out there that's setting all this off?
[questioning quietly]
.... you keep saying that, but I disagree. You're just as trapped here as us. It makes sense to want to help you too. I don't believe in drawing lines about who I want to help over stuff like titles or responsibility. You're still people to me.
[he is currently at a point in his character development where he cannot yet embrace serial killers - but greed isn't that?]
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That's very...[hm.] I understand your position on that matter, but I will say it again. You cannot let your focus stray from what you came here for.
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[bad movie references... go!]
.... I can do both, right? I can try to take care of me and my wish - and Takeru's - but I don't know if I'd be able to live with myself if I gave up on helping you just because you told me to.
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You can do both, but I would advise you not to. You cannot stretch yourself so thin that you lose sight of what's in front of you.
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Same. It's pretty out of my depth but... maybe there's someone else where who knows more about aliens...
[don't just decide it's aliens.
anyway he pauses for a little bit before he just tilts his head]
Are you really that worried about me, Greed-san?
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but because he's. himself. he also won't outright admit to anything and instead pokes at his plate.]
...people like you tend to rush into things because you act on your emotions rather than listen to your logic. Even at the risk of your own life. It only makes sense someone holds you back enough to ensure you're thinking clearly.
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.... I think I'm pretty lucky, with the number of people I've got looking out for me. But if that includes you too, then I'm even luckier?
But you know... I think that if you're the Avatar of Greed and all, shouldn't you be wanting a bit more from the rest of us too? [and he'll put his chopsticks into his bowl for a second, making a fist with his hand and thumping it against his own chest] So I'm serious! Want a little bit more from me - I'll answer it as best as I can.
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but he digresses.]
What I want is for you to live. I would prefer not to have more lives lost on my hands. [hm.] But your type always seems to find a way to turn things around regardless of what I say.
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but he just manages a bit of a laugh at that]
... I wanna live too, Greed-san. But if I'm gonna live, I wanna make it mean something instead of just coasting by again.
So let me use this life of mine to help you too already.
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Only if you actually speak to Sasazuka and come up with a plan. [do not! lose sight! of your focus!]
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Yeah! I will. Promise.
So uphold your end of the bargain once I'm done with that, okay?
[let him help greed!!!!]
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