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[liuli]

logically i know that the more time passes the less likely i am to finish this so im back

let's talk about week 3!! lots of things went on in week 3. jesus. so! we started off the week with some truly terrible flirting because of the extra sins week but more importantly... The Lore Exchange. so obviously gy wasn't like, surprised that molly was willing to tell him the story behind the memories but he was surprised that he told him so quickly? it didn't occur to him that "wow you almost died" could be a reason why but you know whatever. one of the things that gy really likes about molly is how fascinating he is and how exciting and interesting he is, and this was one of those times where his lack of knowledge about something from molly's world (specifically, magic stuff) wasn't like "ooh shiny" interesting, it was like "i wish i actually knew how to do something about this" kind of interesting. he can't even begin to really understand the lucien situation which was why his ultimate response was "fuck that guy and eighteen generations that came before him" LMAO. in a way i think it's kind of a refreshing contrast between the two of them - the demon mystical tiefling with all kinds of wild magical mysteries and the pragmatic human who refuses to believe in his local religion let alone magic. he didn't necessarily see molly any differently upon learning that story, either - mostly just learned that he really hated?? the idea of someone else showing up in molly's body and wreaking havoc what the fuck its molly's lucien can fuck right off! it all helped sort of solidify his "we're getting out of here" promise from the beginning, too, because he was not going to let molly go back only to be dead and then possessed by Being Evil Makes You Cis Fucko over there, especially after getting to know him and knowing how much the nein mean to him, too. he's terribly protective over the things that matter to him (see: great liang, see: chang geng, etc) and molly fell right into that category from day one, so this was just another problem to add to his list of things to help with and fix! yeah! fuck lucien!!!!

so he left that feeling super protective still and then it was molly's turn to CYOA closes eyes.

when the first people in that cyoa group came back i had already figured out molly was on one oocly because you were like "medbay curfew!" and i was like there is NO WAY molly isnt gone THERE IS NO WAY but icly gy found out right here. and haha. it's great! sometimes you just decide you re going to do everything in your power to get someone out of here safe and keep them away from harm and then that person vanishes the same way you did! he was in full battle crisis mode by the time the others came back and you can see a little in that thread/some of the responses that both yuri and law reached out to him and he was conflicted a bit between his usual business mode and also trying not to freak the fuck out. when molly did show up with his NINE IRON (which by the way, it being a nine iron made me laugh when it happened later... you ever think about how that could be a ship name for these two) he was. Mad and worried and freaked out and anxious and like 500 other emotions all at once haha man

i mentioned it in my meta for our pc thread that week but gu yun is always the One Who Gets Hurt. this sort of situation gets mirrored in canon and it is a hugely galvanizing emotional moment, and it was no different here. just in general, gu yun doesn't really have many attachments - shen yi, chang geng, and that's really it - because he's just already lost every personal attachment he's ever had. can't get hurt if you don't get attached to people! (fingerguns) his abandonment issues are buried but they're super real. and so seeing molly come back that hurt really fucked his thought process up in a lot of ways! for one, it was fucking terrifying to think about losing him (and gu yun does NOT get scared easily). for another, it made him crazy that there wasn't any way he could have done anything about it. for yet another thing, it also made him realize like oh. oh, this is how molly felt last week. oh. i'm such a fucking moron. it was a taste of his own medicine of Normal Human Emotions that he was feeling, and also the moment when he realized how easy it is to lose someone in the indulgence center and how close it can come to him? because no one he really cared a lot about died lol so... this was scary as shit!!! it was such a moment of realization for gu yun.

it was also horrifying and made him REALLY angry to hear that the cyoa used a fake version of him?? like holy shit talk about a situation being out of his control and also!! adding insult to injury!!! i wish i could've been a fly on the wall to see your guys' discord chat with it because i sisi was losing my SHIT when that little piece of information came out. (also crystal being like "i know your ship crimes" was hysterical) in the IC level, that anger couldn't go anywhere so gy just kind of stewed in it and spent that whole day/the next day Thinking About It, and thinking about a whole lot of emotions for one tiny marquis!!! it led him to being fussy because he wanted to try and fix it and didn't know how and wanted to make molly feel better!! and this is why he got so spoiled.

it also eventually led to

confession attempt #1

because I don't think he would've said anything if the situation hadn't lined up as perfectly as it did. molly was the one who kind of took a leap first, and gu yun had spent that the 48 hours leading up to that moment like coping with a completely fatal amount of emotion relating to molly so when he just gave him that one off about kissing him the most gy was like you know what? fuck it! fuck it!! yolo! and that was exactly why he said something back.

... except he's terrible at it!!! gu yun went into basically everything relating to Having Feelings Towards Molly with ZERO plan because he's always been good at improvising and also if he thought it through he likely wouldn't have done anything?? but that meant that he's used to talking out of his ass about some things... but completely inexperienced at talking out of his ass about others and there was no amount of being silver tongued that could've made a confession of Feelings easy. so that was why all he could say was "I'd buy up your whole bakery" which I think is honestly very reflective of the fact that they're both stupid as hell and very IC of us to completely botch this. gu yun panicked. and. so did molly, so. molly's reaction got him very flustered and just very ????? because he wasn't sure what he was trying to say either? or what molly was trying to say? so it was just a lot of screaming. basically just


this, if you will.

when it was done and molly did his fingerguns and flee gy had absolutely NO idea where they stood and just tried to forget about it! haha! in canon he gets called "great liang's greatest garlic" which is related to an old saying, and it basically means "the absolute best person at faking it and lying over something he doesn't want to acknowledge" so that was his plan for this too. just act like nothing happened! what a fucking stupid plan.

trial that week was a lot of gay drama that wasn't related to him thank fucking god. gy was very impressed with his + harrow's plan and was more than happy to help out with it. he also thought molly's joke was hysterical exactly like harrow thought he was going to. shocking no one. it was nice to get a victory! nice to have a distraction!!! trial was fine and normal and then after trial we had..... confession attempt #2!

they did slightly better talking about it in the second one but really not much better at all. god. gu yun was absolutely not going to bring it back up and had no intentions of doing so/found it much easier to keep pretending it didn't happen but molly brought it back up on accident and then. yeah. at that point, he didn't have anything to say, because he'd already backtracked into his "What That Didn't Happen I'm Deaf Suddenly" act but he did feel like. "man i shouldn't have said anything" kind of but not really?? and he didn't want their relationship to be fucked over by it so he attempted to fix it, AND THEN MOLLY SAID HE LIKED! WHAT HE SAID!! WHAT!!! that entire conversation was just him with ihs hands off of the wheel, screaming!!! it ended with like 5% more understanding of what was going on between them. on gy's end, molly gave him the out of having to attempt to explain anything more or say anything else and he took it like it was a goddamn lifesaver because he is just COMICALLY bad at talking about this kind of thing. he canonically never told CG he loved him in direct words until like MONTHS after their initial "confession" and that's

basically what happened here? he just kind of decided ok so there are feelings (?) of some kind (?) out there (?) and that's great that's that. he decided right after this thread he was gonna make good on his flowers and jewelry promise and that's where that stupid thread with mineo came in. mineo actually....... helped him sort through some of his Emotions TM in a way that made them feel more tangible? gy in his own way kind of admitted that he did have Some Feelings which is a lot for him!!! and i think it said a lot about how much he rly did like molly too and where their relationship had gone so far - just that opening the door into affection and all of the mutual trust and story sharing and intimacy that had led up to this point on top of the near loss of molly because of the CYOA made it a little easier to admit to. plus gy also knew he was about to lose his hearing/sight and he had no way to fix it yet.

he had plans to go ahead and do his apology/try again at clearing up the confession week 4 but

love arrows sure happened

whew. week four was gu yun's probable worst week in the entire game i think and he murdered someone week 5. LMAO. it wasn't just molly related but i'll focus on those parts!! first of all he was PISSED that someone did this to molly bc the two of them had literally just talked about the love arrows and how fucked up they were on sunday. (even relating to white which was funny). he was pissed bc he was worried to hell that someone was going to use it against molly, and he was pissed because someone messed with molly's feelings and also he was pissed because he himself had showed this tiny little bit of vulnerability and was starting to feel okay with showing it and even confessing it, and it took a lot of work to kind of work up to being able to do that and he knew his sight/hearing was gonna be kaput in a week and then someone love arrowed molly and it was just

bad

the timing was so bad. he said this ic but i'll reiterate here that gy's not really a super jealous or possessive person? he just isn't used to Having Things and has long since been okay with that. he wasn't really jealous, either. it wasn't "i want what they have", it was "the lion the witch and the audacity of this (unknown curse casting) bitch" LOL. he was just mad and hated seeing it for lots of reasons but his own Actual Real Dokis for molly were a part of that, too. not only that but it was fucking kindness week - i genuinely think he wouldn't have been as pissy if he could've just picked on white the entire time. LOL. he did reach out to try and get it fixed and ran into a brick wall and that irritated the shit out of him, he couldn't interrogate the answer out of the person he was pretty sure did it (and then found out his guess was right later AND SHE FORGOT EVEN DOING IT) and like. he was just mad and that being Mad is what drove the emotional butt bite thread.

aka... confession attempt #3! this one was like the closest to actually working which is funny because there was just so much shit going on. gy was actually kind of avoiding seeing anyone that week and was just gonna pull the "i have a bad migraine" to avoid seeing molly, too, but ultimately he's weak and couldn't do that and that was why he cracked in that thread. it was good for him, i think, because it also was something he couldn't ignore, because it was going to keep making him mad, and he didn't want that to color his relationship with molly later or god forbid ruin it, so he chose to confront it instead. and it was messy! and terrible! there was a moment when he almost backed out of it but when he asked molly do you trust me? and molly didn't even HESITATE and was like "of course i do, zixi" he pretty much committed to shoving his boot in it and saying something about the curse and also about Feelings kind of. trust is such a huge thing for gu yun - he literally only trusts shen yi, miss chen (his doctor) and eventually chang geng and that is IT - but since molly had long since earned his trust it was kind of a leap for him to say something like that. so to have it immediately returned back with "of course I do" really just solidified his plan of "just gonna tell him straight to his face". and he definitely took his frustration on the whole thing out on molly but not like, on him? (just on him physically ayyy) and it was good for them both in the way that messy things can be really good. it cleared gy's head a little on the issue and he was still pretty cranky about it all week but ultimately didn't really feel any guilt for stealing molly from his True Love White because... the mess was real and he knew it was real from the past like, week of them trying to wade through it. molly choosing to stay even at the end also helped to solidify the "this is real and that's fake" too, so he was mostly just trying to figure out who the fuck did it and/or find a way to break the curse after that.

it also helped a lot when he got hit with the capricorn curse on wednesday and he was so MAD but he had such a nice time with molly still. this was one of my personal favorites of all of our threads. i think the fact that he got through both the kindness compulsion and the capricorn curse and the love arrows and they still had a really good time meant a lot to GY, even if he didn't say it, especially once he figured out that he was cursed the next day. it was a really sweet moment of levity and helped to smooth things out even further. it ultimately comes back to what he really likes the most about molly - that they always have fun together - and was a good reminder of that. also he got to like throw him in the air and catch him which was admittedly good for being frustrated. LMAOO. trial week 4 was shitty, and he wasn't super thrilled about the result - he was worried about harrow and worried about misa! his angry tiny girls!!!! but it wasn't anything completely world ending.

the biggest thing week 4 was admitting finally that his sight and hearing were basically gone and that he was going to have to murder someone if he wanted to get his medicine. obviously this was a big deal and it said a lot about his relationship with molly AND harrow that he was willing to admit this weakness to them both, just because he's always been ready for someone to take advantage of that and stab him in the back because of it, and that sure as fuck isn't what happened.

i'M RUNNING OUT OF FUCKING CHARACTERS, AGAIN, JESUS, this was Essay Part Two: The Really Gay Edition. join us next time for the murder i guess