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TL;CR MEME
1. Comment with your character.
2. Receive comments from others.
3. Reply to their comments with long ballads and explanations of your characters' relationship throughout the game.
4. Suffer as we have suffered over your CR.
1. Comment with your character.
2. Receive comments from others.
3. Reply to their comments with long ballads and explanations of your characters' relationship throughout the game.
4. Suffer as we have suffered over your CR.
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aight let me start off by saying i definitely was not expecting to end up where we ended up AT ALL lol. at first i just kind of figured yay purple bastards! i only really knew about molly from dash osmosis and the little things you'd mentioned in chat but even from that i was super excited about it lol.
and from their first thread… gy and molly totally vibed!! i went back to find it and couldn't help but laugh at molly saying - "You are already my favorite person here, you know?" because wow… that was within like five comments worth of threading. by the end of weekend 0 gy was already like "this funky little purple man is hilarious where has he been all my life??" and that just carried on. i've mentioned this before but gy is really unique in his home canon because pretty much EVERYONE he knows is really, really straight laced. he's never met anyone who thinks even remotely like he does, so to show up and pretty much immediately start vibing with someone that easily was such a new experience! gy also really doesn't make real friends??? so coming in and being able to do that right off the bat was a great way to kick off their cr. he just genuinely thought molly was the most interesting person in the entire indulgence center and he still thinks he is by endgame and probably will forever. gross? gross.
So fun purple bastard vibing (and so much flirting) aside the first thread that really comes to mind that's important is when he let molly read his fortune out of an impulse decision - two things he like NEVER does. that was really a moment that could've broken our cr entirely - if molly told it in a way similar to the monks at home he would've dismissed him right off and pretty much stopped talking to him LOL. fortunes are such a Thing for him because the monks at hu guo basically are the ones that have kept him from forming any sort of relationship in his life AND fed some bad information into the ears of the emperor through super insidious gossip, about the fact that he was born under unlucky stars/the unluckiest day of the year? so the story was that he was going to bring calamity to his whole family's name, and then like, right as that happened his parents both died. lmao. it's why he hates the monks so much and thinks they're obnoxious. but luckily that didn't happen because molly's good! he really liked that when gy called him on it and said it was a fake/a grift and molly was just like "yeah! take what you want from it." it helped to solidify his opinion that the center itself was somewhere completely different and also helped start that like - "you know me" conversation instead of "you know this image that is projected of me" which is his whole big thing. so. at that point he decided that molly was the kind of weird that he vibed with and therefore he wanted to spend time with him. and. continue to spend time with him. he would not have accepted a weed from molly if he hadn't already kinda put himself in the "fuck it live a little" mindset from spending time with him either so.
THIS IS WHERE THE JELLY DONUT THING HAPPENED TOO god, he wouldn't have harped on it so much if it wasn't so funny. i think because for him he didn't even have the concept of "stuff your face with as many (metaphorical) pastries as possible" first??? he just has never indulged in a goddamn thing besides booze and practical jokes in his life so it was funny when molly started talking around it like that, and being able to tease him for it made it easier to hide the fact that he's a HUGE BABY and has never done a single weed or kissed someone or anything at all. he definitely caught onto the metaphor and the flirting alike and was like oh. Oh I See, but the lightheartedness to it all made it easier to keep joking and goofing off with him and to fall into that new pattern of ~*indulging*~
and then. beau happened! haha wow
so watching all the events unfold during the trial was. it was a lot!! whew!! gy had already pretty much accepted that something Bad Was Going To Happen so when there was a murder he was 0% surprised, but like… after that big conversation they had about molly being dead he was extra sour about it. because he'd been nothing but fun and kind and light on the surface but like clearly there was more under there, so to see him have to go through that kind of pain was really shitty?? them being completely wrong made him really pissed, too, and like. gu yun's very much the "there is a problem and i'm going to solve it" kind of guy, so for him the lateral step to molly saying "well i'm probably gonna die anyway" was "no the fuck you aren't?" and he decided RIGHT THEN that they were both getting out of there. he didn't think bringing beau back was possible then so when molly was like "you gotta bring beau back too" he was like you know what? sure i'll do it i've done more impossible shit before
that mantra of "the mighty nein don't leave each other behind" resonated with him a lot, too. beyond his own mentality of his troops, which is pretty similar, it also kind of hit in his abandonment issues LOL. gy's got a whole complex about people leaving him and he's literally dragged himself off of death's door to make sure that he didn't leave CG behind when he was a kid so! yeah!! it stuck right in his stubbornness and stayed. and when molly mentioned that he hated being alone at the beginning of that thread - it just really, really resonated, and that was why he ended up telling molly his wish.
and like, molly is the only person gy told his wish to until… the last week? he just lied about it to anyone else who asked. but it came up in that moment bc he just basically made a huge promise and needed him to understand that he was going to follow through on it. later on he told harrow he had absolutely no clue why he told molly so quickly (but the truth is that he was just already really attached to molly and he just didn't know it yet. stupid) at this point he was like aight that's it this is my ride or die here we fucking go
this is already 1200 words i fucking hate myself
ANYHOO MOVING ON week 1!! week 1 was the week they actually smooched?? wow. jelly donuts! it's funny at that point gy had definitely figured out the whole point of the Indulgence Center and had smooched lup and had his first absolutely unsexy business bang (thank you childe) but molly's was a lot different. they just hadn't crossed that line yet, and that was fine bc gy was never going to be the one to cross it first, but even he could tell there was something there. it was a little more than any connection he'd had with anyone else, too, and they'd toed the line of it a couple times up until that point -- but when the smooch actually happened it really surprised him! gy spent a lot of time the first couple weeks trying to keep up his "oh yeah i'm DEFINITELY a playboy i've DEFINITELY done this before" facade and so he just kind of went along with it when things started getting spicy, internally screaming the whole time. he's sort of used to the flirt with no payoff so it was like wow! surprise! it's payoff!!! and it's payoff with someone he really likes! so he ended up becoming a monsterfucker. wow sometimes you learn things about yourself in the indulgence center. gy was a big gay baby and i know we faded to black on that thread but rest assured he was internally dying the entire time during and after. after that they were banging regularly! sorry pride but not sorry (đź””)
also when grell died there was a part of him that was ready to like Go To Bat if anyone accused molly of it because first of all who cared it was grell, second of all, how dare you? god he was already so protective of him bc of that little promise they made lmao but luckily that didnt come up much.
i think the end of trial/pc after that was a little more important, anyway. i thought the end of this thread was really sweet - wow, hand holding, but also reaching out to others is something he never does so when molly just?? did it for him it was surprising. gy's character arc was based on accepting help/things from others and i think molly just being so tactile and affectionate with him was so new it helped keep him from being totally skittish and running from it, because it also seemed to help molly a lot? it was why he offered his company then and on sunday, too, which became sort of a routine by the end of things. molly eased him into affection in ways that i don't think anyone else would've been completely successful at doing, so great job molly.
deeply sighs in memshare. week two!!
so I knew immediately that I was going to give you the blind/deaf memory because I knew that I had to be SUPER careful about who i was going to give it to bc it. Like. if i'd given it to childe childe would've been dead that friday. ja feel.
but molly was the perfect choice because gy already trusted him to an extent and so he didn't absolutely hate giving it over to him. molly handled it with flying colors, and i think one thing that just came up in their cr over and over was basically them both being able to let go of information and trust each other with it on their own terms. like, gy didn't get to decide if molly saw his blind/deaf lore but molly immediately being like "i can just forget that' and then them talking about it/joking about it really helped solidify that it maybe was going to be okay that someone else knew his lore. and that's a really, really big deal for gu yun because he is so unbelievably protective of that secret bc of his pride and his family issues and also the whole people want him dead all the time thing, but molly handling that memory the way he did was a huge positive in their cr.
and then… at the beginning of that thread i had been like "he already had a migraine" but i changed my mind and retconned bc i did want to thread it out and i was so glad i did. gy usually runs off to hide when he gets his migraines so no one sees him showing an ounce of weakness and there was a moment where he tried to run and molly just responded by basically fussing over him and taking care of him. and that threw him off guard so much?? when molly didn't buy his stupid excuse and immediately started to worry over him he just? let it happen because he was so surprised by it, and so touched by it lmao. the entire situation! this was the point where feelings were starting to develop, even if he wasn't super cognizant of it yet. he just let molly see him at his absolute most vulnerable and putting his trust in his hands was rewarded. by the end of memshare he trusted molly 100%, because that was suuuuch a huge deal. character checkpoint cleared baby
OH ALSO A TINY THING - i didn't ever mention this but in canon gu yun sometimes has trouble sleeping/doesn't sleep very often, and one of the ways that he's pretty easily comforted to sleep in canon is bc chang geng takes a like. herbal tranquilizer mix burnt like incense and carries some of it around in a pouch? and that smell is really comforting and helps gy fall asleep in late canon. so, when you mentioned molly's room smelled like all these things i was like aw wow this is gonna be the Comfort isn't it and it sure fucking was all game long.
so there was that. AND THEN ALSO, seeing molly's memory he didnt remember definitely freaked gy out LOL but he was like "ok just another thing to add to my get-this-fixed-before-we-get-out-of-here" list and followed molly's lead on it. and after spilling his own lore spaghetti everywhere when molly's came out and he wanted a chance to tell it for himself, like, gu yun respected that so much because he felt the same way about his own?? and so of course he wasn't going to press but man did he want to know LOL. i think this is just him vibing with being similar to molly, in that he also hates the idea of people prying into his shit, and he was willing to give molly the chance to tell it himself. he respected that molly was willing to back off of his stuff and so he backed off too. i think they both just had their not-quite truths that memshare cracked open and it said a lot about their cr that they were both willing to give forward a little more information on their own in time.
and then he disappeared and went off on a cyoa!!! so gu yun gets hurt All The Time. like, it's part of his job to be infallible so when he gets injured he tends to just hide it from other people or brush it off like nothing. he's used to licking his wounds in private! so, for the second time that week, molly's genuine worry over him surprised gy so much. he's the marquis of order, no one's ever worried about the marquis of order! and molly wasn't, he was just worried about gu yun. when he apologized to him it was because he was thrown off by it, and seeing that what happened earlier in the week wasn't just a fluke, but that this was just genuinely the kind of person molly is? wow. Dokis. he was pretty much immediately cowed into behaving himself because he didn't want to disrespect that, and because he just… really didn't like seeing him so angry and upset, especially because it was over him?? he's also just never had anyone to worry over him when he's injured literally ever, both because he never allowed it and because he just didn't have it (we love having no friends and dead family because who is gu yun etc) so it was such a new thing…. and it happened twice!! after molly left he likely just sat there like "what the fuck? what the fuc k" yea. that was why he remembered to text him first thing in the morning to say he was alive and also why he remembered his flowers and jewelry promise, too.
onwards through week two, the other big thing was after they fucked up accusing fukuda (whoops) when they shared the Name Lore. molly hadn't really used gy's name that many times in pcs that had gone on that week? so when he called him gu yun it was like a little jarring because at that point, he didn't feel like he needed that layer of separation anymore between the two of them. it was a piece of lore he was willing to offer up without memshare (although looking back on it, i think i should've done another mem during that thread LOL but thats okay) and it also signified a big change for him in their relationship. i think it's kind of cute how molly introduces himself as "mollymauk, molly to my friends" immediately but it takes gu yun a long time to get to the same "gu yun, but zixi to people close to me". zixi isn't just a name that's personal, it also signifies "we are equals" and that was a big step for him, too - he wasn't going to admit to it out loud, but offering up his own story and letting molly call him zixi was him saying "i trust you and feel really close to you" so. he really appreciated getting that little bit of lore back, too! it was a reminder of the sort of relationship that they'd carved out so far, and of the promise of telling the story earlier in the week.
i just think they were pretty much always on even ground, and even ground can be really hard to get with gu yun. he's never had anyone to be his equal in...any way in his entire life so it just meant a lot to him that they seemed to really understand each other, and that molly also just gave a shit about him in ways that no one had ever really given a shit about him in particular (compared to his title) before. what's it like to be emotionally competent or have emotionally competent friends? apparently it's really great!
do you see jan's giant essay up there
that's gonna be me i'm already almost at character limit and its week fucking two. please hold i will continue working on this probably on and off